[..this is the sound track for our movie..|..and i'm so inlove with you..]

tumblr!

2009-12-21T16:27:00.002+08:00

I'M ON TUMBLR!!!!!:) FOLLOW ME THERE!:)
http://oeleo.tumblr.com

[April 7 2009] 5yrs!

2009-04-07T08:03:00.003+08:00

hi blog!:D 5 years old ka na! hahahaha... tagal narin nating nagsama ah. thanks for being there 'tol! you're my outlet and all... hahahaha... ayun! HAPPY 5 YEARS!:D

[April 1 2009] the judgement day!

2009-04-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i relly blogged... i focused on my studies eh...>.< pero, i still didn't get high grades... i even took remedials for BioOrganic Chemistry... gahad! this past week was the most stressful week ever... the thoughts of the results... nyarrrrrr!!! anyway....

April 1, April Fool's Day diba? but in UST it wasn't... this was our clearance day and sobrang tension ang mararamdaman mo form each student na hoping to pass every course. sobrang stressful ng aura ng mga tao. so yun... clearance was 1pm, and i went to the manila area mga 8am cause i was planning to answer the friggin evaluations in an internet shop, but sadly. wala parin. while i was using the internet time, i received a phone call from one of my blockmates with this wasour convo:

pia: Leo, alam mo na ba grade mo sa BioSci (PhysioAna)?
leo: ndi pa eh... bakit?
pia: kasi kakakuha ko lang ng clearance ko, kasi aalis ako mamayang 1 kaya kinuha ko na.
leo: nakuha mo na? daya!
pia: kasi nga may pupuntahan ako mamaya.
leo: o, tapos?
pia: yun nga, yung biosci, walang nakasulat sa clearance. tapos pumunta ako kay mam anne (college secretary), tinanong ko kung bakit ganon. sabi niya hindi pa raw na-e-encode, pero wala namang bumagsak sa atin! yey!
leo: talaga? seryoso?

so yun... alam niyo na... so i was able to breathe now, kasi nga biosci and chemlec nalang problema ko. so i paid my usage and waited nalang sa medicine building. so, kinakabahan na ako kasi nga isang course nalang problema ko... so we waited sa isang room, tapos mga 2:00 na, wala pa... tapos may blockmate kami na pumunta sa room and said na the clearance is released na. so we went to the Computer Barn. ANDAMING TAO! exxaj talaga! as in!:)) hahahaha... so yun... i was able to check my grades and i saw na pasado ako ng ChemLEC! i was like. "yes! summer vacation, here i come!" i was so overwhelmed of what i saw... muntikan na ako maiyak...:P joke!:P

pero yun nga! i got my clearance na and seeing "PASS" in everyline, except BioSci (blank kasi), was a reliefe. so yun... THANK YOU LORD!:D

so there... i passed my second year! THIRD YEAR, MAJORS, LAB UNIFORMS, SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, HERE I COME!:D

btw, may grades na online, para sa thomasians... click here...:D

and here are my grades... ndi kataasan, pero ayos lang!:D
"TRES is better than SINKO!":D

[March 31 2009] On being Random...

2009-03-31T12:34:00.000+08:00

are there times when you feel like you're unsure. like there are things holding you back and you just want to do anything. i do. and i ended up writing this...

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Have you ever felt like you don’t belong in a certain place?
Like you’re still looking for that place that could make you feel that you fit in.
Have you ever felt that life is unfair?
It’s like you’re stuck in a bubble that you can’t burst.
Hindering you from doing what you want.
Taking your freedom, locking you away from reality.
Have you ever felt that you are only a small speck of dust in the world?
Like you don’t matter to anyone.
Like you’re invisible to the naked eye of people you thought were true.
Have you felt that the world is going down on you?
The instances that what you want doesn’t happen;
What you hoped for doesn’t come?
Have you ever seen yourself as someone who is useless?
No matter what you do, it always felt wrong.
No matter what you say, it all seems like a lie.
Have you ever dreamt of being someone you’re not?
Like someone who is popular being sought by everyone; just to escape reality?
Life’s full of lies that make you think everything is true. Ironic isn’t it?
Life gave you what you didn’t want to see.
It spread its soothing lullaby, etching across your horrid mind.
Words can’t really explain what you feel.
The pitter-pattering of questions lingers on your head, and you STOP!
Questions are answered. Answers you wish aren’t real.
Then you look back. You see yourself filled with selfish aura.
Your eyes turned black. And suddenly, you disappear.
Traces of your existence vanished. And you got what you wanted.
Now you fit perfectly in the place you are in.
And millions and millions of companions support you.
You’re no longer you, but a star, a shining star strewn across the velvet sky.
And you were happy.

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comment!:D

Clearance tomorrow!>.< please, pray na sana okay lahat...:)

[March 29 2009] Tomasino, ako?

2009-03-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

1. ANO STUDENT NUMBER MO?
- 2007002*** [delikado na at baka tignan ang aking grades....:P]

2. NAG-UST KA BA DAHIL DI KA PUMASA SA UP O ATENEO?
- hindi ako pumasa sa admu eh...:)) hahahahaha... yung up naman, kinapos ng ilang puntos para makaabot...:P

3. ANO FIRST CHOICE MO?
- BS Physical Therapy

4. ANO PABORITO MONG KARINDERYA?
- sa Dapitan Square! dami karinderya dun...:P yun nga lang, hindi siya yung tipo na turo-turo...:P

5. MAGKANO ANG PAMASAHE SA DYIP NUNG NAG-AARAL KA PA?
- Syete Pesos! tapos pag studyante ka, Sais lang!:))

6. NARANASAN MO NA BANG MABAHA SA UST?
- oo naman! pano ba naman kasi, lakbay-aral, bumabagyo! ayos ang 2 oras na pagaanty ng masasakyan pauwi.:)) hahahaha... may sinundo pa ako sa airport nung gabung yun! ayos!:)) buti nalang may tsinelas ako sa sasakyan ng aking ama!:P

7. ANO ORG MO?
- PTSoc...:P sumali ako sa Red Cross pero hindi nila ako nirecognize as member. sayang isang daan ko...>.<

8. NAG ROTC KA BA?
- hindi eh... nagsawa ako sa CAT...:)) hahahaha...

9. KAMPEON BA ANG TIGERS NUNG NAG-AARAL KA O IKAW ANG MALAS SA KANILA?
- MALAMANG.... hinde! pero overall champs parin!:)) kaya quits lang!:))

10. KABISADO MO BA ANG UST HYMN?
- op cors! kailangan eh, paquiz yan ni mam q at ser jurado!:P

11. NABISITA MO BA ANG UST MORGUE?
- MALAMANG.... hinde!:P pero yung Cadaver Lab sa Medicine Building, Oo!:) ayos dun eh!:P amoy mint!:P sayang tambayan! tsaka, makakaharap ko rin sila sa darating na panahon!:P *ehem*thirdyear*ehem*

12. SINONG PINAKASIKAT NA ARTISTANG TOMASINO ANG KILALA MO NOON?
- si D.N.!:D kala mo ha! sikat na sikat yun!:D

13. NAKA-HONOR KA BA?
- sa kasamaang palad... hinde eh! pero NL ako!:)) NASA LIST!:P (ops! corny oh!:P)

14. ANO FAVORITE SUBJECTS MO?
- BioSci at RIZAL! saya ng mga prof. dun eh!:D yun nga lang, ayaw yata sa akin nung unang subject!:))

15. ANO NAMAN ANG PINAKAAYAW MO?
- ano... uhm... yung ano... YAH!:)) hahahaha... sikret!:P

16. NAKAPAGSWIMMING KA BA SA POOL NG USTE?
- wala akong balak eh!:)) hahahahaha... kadiri ang yellow-green na kulay na tubig!:))

17. NAKASALUBONG KA BA NG PARING NAG-JO-JOGGING SA FIELD NUNG NAG-AARAL KA PA?
- wala pa yata... lahat kasi sila naka dyaging awtpit! kaya ayun... hindi ko alam kung sino ang pari at kung sino ang hinde!:))

18. NANAGINIP KA BANG MAKASAYAW TULAD NG MGA TAGA-SALINGGAWI?
- hinde rin! pero MASAYA SUMAYAW!:)) hhahahaha... labo, okay?!?:))

19. ANO PINAKAMAGANDANG UNIFORM PARA SAYO?
- maganda yung uniform ng CRS Interns!:)) hahahaha... pati na sa MED! all white eh!:P pero seryoso, maganda yung sa Civil Law! may blazers eh!:P

20. ANO NAMAN ANG PINAKABURAOT?
- ay... prends tayo!:))

21. UMAATTEND KA BA NG PASKUHAN?
- Once lang! hindi ko pa naabutan yung payerwerks!>.< pero ang galing ng BAMBOO!:))

22. MAGKANO TUITION NUNG PANAHON MO?
- Singkwentamil mhigit yata...

23. SINO PINAKAKINATAKUTAN MONG PROPESOR?
- si ano na to... obviously... si... *bang* hala, may nakarinig sa iniisip ko... *bang* ouch....

24. NAKA-ATTEND KA BA KAHIT ISANG RALLY?
- hindi eh... kahit RALLY for PEACE o PRAYER RALLY wala rin...:))

25. NARAMDAMAN MO BANG MAY CSC (CENTRAL STUDENT COUNCIL)?
- Pano ba namang hinde! parang bawat sulo ng uste may agmumukha nila! at eto pa... pwede mo pa sila i-text... o diba? ayos na ayos?!?:P

26. SI CLAVIO BA ANG REGISTRAR NUNG NAG-AARAL KA?
- Ano itsura non... dami kasing tao sa Registrar...:))

27. SINO REKTOR NUNG PANAHON MO?
- Si ano... SIYA... ano nga ba yun... *isip...isip* ah, ewan... sige na nga si Rev. Fr. Rolando Dela Rosa O.P. na nga lang...:P

28. ANO MGA NAGING PE MO AT NATUTO KA NAMAN BA?
- Basic Volleyball, Fitness, Social Dance, Sepak Takraw... kahit papaano, meron naman!:P ayos eh... hindi bumababa ng 1.25 ang grades...:)) hahahahaha...:P

29. KUMAIN KA BA NG MGA ISAW O FISHBALL SA DAPITAN?
- MASARAP ANG KRISPY ISAW SA ASTURIAS!:)) hahahaha... tsaka nga pala yung mga tuknene at tokwa. sama mo narin yung kamote fries at cheese sticks...:)) oh buhay tomasino...:P

30. NARANASAN MO BA ANG MAYRICS O TAPSI?
- hinde eh! san ba yun? turo mo nga para mabisita ko naman!:P hahahaha...

[February 27 2009] Untitled

2009-02-27T07:36:00.000+08:00

i haven't been updating much because i want a ONE TIME, BIG TIME UPDATE!:P hahahaha... so wait for the flood of images... hahaha...:P joke! anyway, i haven't feeling well lately. i'm not sick or anything, it's just that i feel like there's something missing. i don't know what it is, but anyway, maybe this'll pass... so, i blogged because i want to share a song i'm writing.:P yeap! SONG ULIT!:D so here's the first part of the lyrics... first part because i can't seem to finish it, as always...:P hahaha... so here!

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Hello, how’ve you been?
It’s been so long, since the day we talked.
And I want to know if you’d still allow,
Me to say what I feel.
And I want to know if you’d still look me in the eyes,
Like before. Ohhh

‘Cause time flies and I know, people change.
And usually it is for the better.
But some just stick around,
And they don’t know, that they’re hurting inside.

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comment?!:D

[January 31 2009] Are You Going to Finish Strong?

2009-01-31T07:10:00.000+08:00

Did you ever think that you're worth nothing? that everything that is happening to you is all wrong? did you ever feel that you're useless and your weak and easily broken?

life is like that, most of the time, we fall down, get hurt, and feel inferior. but we should try to stand up, stand tall, and correct what we have done before. life maybe unfair, but did you ever think about other people? people who are born with disabilities. people who lives like there is no hope anymore. the blind, the mentally handicapped, the mute, the deaf.

did you ever think how they feel for themselves?

we should be thankful for what we have, life is unfair, that's a fact. but we must look at it in another way. people with disabilities try their best to do better, why? so they can be accepted by the people. so that they won't be discriminated and pushed aside.

i remember the story of Ms. Roselle Ambubuyog, the1st Filipina visually-impaired summa cum laude graduate of the Ateneo de Manila University (2001). She refused to go to handicap school because she believes that she is just like anybody else. She went to school, read braille textbooks and eventually, she graduated Summa Cum Laude.

"All of us have our own disabilities. Mine is more obvious. I can represent what it means to go beyond one's limitations with determination, perseverance, the help of others, and the grace of God."
- Roselle Ambubuyog

here is another story about being able to accept who you are. being able to see that you can stand up if you fall. even if we fail, we must try, and try, and try. because eventually, we will be able to stand again. and the scars that we obtain from trying, let it be a reminder that we can stand up, no matter how hard and painful it might be.

Here is a story of Nick Vujicic, he has no arms or legs but has come to terms with his lot in life. Here's an inspirational speech that he delivered. simple, yet heart felt.

Are You Going to Finish Strong?

think | reflect | pray

[January 23 2009] UST-CRS: Support!

2009-01-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

Support our very own

Mr. Jan Michael de Jesus
and
Ms. Cecille Camille Viray

Mr. and Ms. Rehabilitation Sciences Personality!

[January 17 2009] Multiply Virus?!

2009-01-17T11:52:00.000+08:00

i dunno if this is true, but the hell...

(repost)

If someone by the name of Michael Lardizabal (michael_lardizabal) wants to add you to their list, don't accept it. It's a virus. Tell everyone on your list because if somebody on your list adds them you will get it, too. It is a hard drive killer and a very horrible virus. Please pass this on to everyone on your list. We need to find out who is using this account.

(repost)

[January 10 2008] dahil bored ako...

2009-01-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

dahil bored ako at wala akong magawa...

gusto kong ipakilala sa inyo si:

OCTOPULA
ang pugitang bampira!

ano? handa ka na bang makagat?

;)

[January 03 2009] Droplets

2009-01-03T11:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt like this?

Loving someone but you know you two can't be together. You thought everything will go well between the two of yo but it all went to nothing. You thought loving him/her was all you had to do to be loved back, but it doesn't seem that way anymore. So instead of staying by the person you love, you leave and planned to start a new life. But when youthought that you'd gotten over him.her, there's this little something that seemed to free itself from your mind. This little fragment, a memory of the person you love, and everything comes back to you. You remember him/her and it's harder for you to move on. Loving someone leaves a mark in our hearts that we just wish to fade away so that we can go and move on, but we know that only time can heal these marks. But sometimes, we just have to bear the pain, knowing that someday we will move on, and we will eventually be happy again.

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This song is called "Droplets" and it is sung by Colbie Caillat and Jason Reeves.

Try to feel the emotion of the song, and concentrate on the lyrics. It is such a nice song and hopefully, Colbie and Jason will release an album together. (Lyrics after the video)

Droplets

Jason Reeves and olbie Caillat ( )

(I'm leaving you)
(I'm not sure if that's what I should do)
(It hurts so bad)
(I'm wanting you but cant go back)
(Trying to find, to find)
(That all elusive piece of mind)
(Stuck here somehow)
(Shrouded beneath my fear)
(And now I don't need it)

(Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love)
(And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and i'm just waiting for)
(The droplets, droplets)

You left a mark
I wear it proudly on my chest
Above my heart (Above my heart)
To Remind me that I feel the best
When I'm with you (When I'm with you)
To me everything is effortless
You know its true
My eyes are painted with regret and I don't need it

Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting to fall and sink into your tears

You are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me

You left a mark (you left a mark)
She left a mark (he left)
She left (he left)
And I don't (I don't)
Need it. (Need it)

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have a great day guys!:) a day left before school starts.:D God Bless, and continue to love whatever happens.:)

[January 01 2009] goodbye 2008, hello 2009!:D

2009-01-01T18:50:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!:D

2008 has been a very rough year for me. A lot of things happened that didn’t really fall into place. There were problems that, at first, i couldn’t handle but eventually i did. So i would want to thank everyone who became part of my 2008 (list will follow on another post.:D) there might have been rough times but still we managed to have fun and look on the brighter side of life.

so, a run down on my 2008!

April, i enrolled in summer classes taking up Comparative Anatomy. yep, i failed that course! such a loser! ahahaha… instead of wallowing in dismay and hatred, i enrolled and i did not regret my decision. i met new friends and i learned a lot from them. Being able to be yourself in front of other people makes you feel good. and that’s what i learned, BE YOURSELF! don’t let others influence youeasily. learn to trust yourself in anything that you will do. Thanks CompaMates!!:D

So, 2008 is a new start for me because i became a Sophomore Physical Therapy student. it was really hard because we know the fact that we will be arranged alphabetical and the block i had during my freshman year had that bond already. we learned to accept everyone’s differences and it made us stronger. being in a new class with different people is a new start. adjusting, meeting new people, and hoping to find new friends. that’s what we had to face. meeting 2PTA made me feel a bit uneasy. seeing these people made me feel all tensed and inferior. the people in 2PTA all strived for excellence (which i rarely do, btw. hehehe). but after months of being with them, i finally saw that, hey! we could get along. but still, you can’t really forget that bond you formed before. I realized that we need CHANGE once in a while. and 2PTA is that change. 2PTA, thank you so much for adding color and life to my 2008! you guys rock! hope we’ll have bonding sessions soon!!:D see you guys in 4 days?:P

2008 was also a stressful and hectic year for me! hahahaha… howyes it is! being part of the Mr. and Ms. Rehabilitation Sciences 2008 made me realize that i am a responsible and hardworking person. meeting new people from every batch was a real experience. Documentations Committee, that’s what i am part of. my partner and i had to fix things, arrange questions, contact the models (sometimes), take photographs, take videos, make presentations, make designs for tarps, tickets, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. *catches breath* that’s what we do in that committee! and i loved it!:D Another was i entered a t-shirt design making contest for the College Shirt and Physical Therapy Society Shirt. at first i thought, ‘ok, i’ll enter it for fun.’ but after i was announced the winner. i was like WTH? and it all started there. hahahaha. SC texting, meeting, edit, edit, edit, meeting, texting, edit. PTSoc texting, edit, edit, edit. *catches breath* edit, and more edit, and finally, they released it during the College Week! (was fun, btw!) but after all these, it made me think that ‘hey, you did it! you designed these shirts. even if it was stressful, you had fun! right?’ and i sure did! Sometimes we need to look things in another perspective. it maybe stressful, but still you had fun!:D MMRS08, CRS-SC, PTSoc! thanks for stressing me out! it made me a better person, i learned a lot of things from it! (i’m not being sarcastic, mind you.:D) thanks again!:D PS. CRS-SC and PTSoc: where’s my prize?>.<

oh yeah! i started dorming this year!:D it was fun! being independet for once!:D but still, there’s no place like home!:D Dorming made me a better person. how? i became more RESPONSIBLE. waking-up on my own, buying food and groceries (sometimes my mom bring us foodies!:D) and a lot more. and yeah! i made new friends at the dorm! and it was fun!:D hahahaha… staying up late at the dorm lobby to study, hearing the busy streets of manila and bursting sounds from an ambulanceor a fire truck. oh the life!:D

another thing, my 20th Birthday this year was hella fun! (yep, i turned 20… awww..:( good bye teenage years!>.<) it was our final exams and i called yellowcab pizza to deliver 2 boxes for my friends to eat!:D well, i planned it was only to eat and have bondong moment with my previous blockmates but no! they had a surprise for me! *awww* they bought me 2 cakes! one for the ‘2′ and another for the ‘0′… sweet, right?:D that’s what i like about unoPTC!:D they will really make you feel loved and accepted!:D unoPTC, you guys rock! thanks for another year of friendship!:D *big hug*…:D

well, i guess i’ll end here. i don’t want it to be super duper long so might as well cut it here!:D anyway i would like to thank Father God for giving me another year. 2008 was great and i hope 2009 will be greater!:D hahahaha… THANKS EVERYONE!:D I LOVE YOU ALL!:D hehehe..

have a blessed and fruitful 2009!:D

[January 01 2009] NEW YEAR NA, 2009 NA!:D

2008-12-31T22:39:00.000+08:00

THANKS FOR A WONDERFUL 2008 EVERYONE!:D

[december 27 2008] read and pass on.. (this is not a chain letter...)

2008-12-27T08:37:00.000+08:00

FOR JUSTICE' SAKE PLEASE READ AND PASS ON

http://vicissitude-decidido.blogspot.com/2008/12/world-is-fucked-up.html

[december 23 2008] a Christmas Greeting

2008-12-23T12:50:00.000+08:00

hey everyone!:D as you can see, i haven't updated my blog for a week or so because of the exams that just ended... all i can say is good luck to me and the results.>.< it's really hard and i felt like i didn't study anything when i answered the friggin exams...>.< hopefully, it;ll turn out okay.

anyway, i just dropped by to greet everyone a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY 2009!:D

i made this for everyone...:D

Happy Holidays!:D

[december 09 2008] random post # 000

2008-12-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

nung nakaraang sunday, nabore ako sa bahay at sinubukan kong magbake...:P hahahaha... tantsahan ang aking pag-gawa dahil limitado ang aking mga sangkap.:)) buti nalang, kahit ganoon... masarap parin ang kinalabasan... sinong mag-aakala na ito ay gawa lamang sa hotcake mix at mansanas...:D

oha?!?! oha??:D hehehehe... ito ay aking tinatawag na "apple-cinnamon pockets" malaki siya...:P kasi sa plato yan nakalagay, hindi sa platito...:D ito ay may cinnamo-lemon glaze pa... o diba??:P hahahaha... comment nalang!:D

[november 28 2008] almost done...

2008-11-28T11:54:00.000+08:00

hey, sorry i've been not updating my multiply for a looooong time...>.< i have been reading and studying for school. i need to prove to myself that i can do better than last semester. so far, it has been a disaster...>.< i failed my first quizzes in physics and biosci. and i'm really frustrated because the items that i got errors on were either my answer on the other number was supposed to be the answer to another number or vice versa. i could've passed but oh well... i will do better on the next quizzes!>.<

anyway, enough of acads for now...:P

do you still remember the poem/song on my last post "unfinished..."?

well, i am almost done with it.:P hahahaha... anyway, here's the lyrics/poem again...:P

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hear me out, say your name
feel my heart, you'll be safe
take my hand, we will fly
just believe, we can try

i'll be holding on to you
i'll make you feel how much i love you
i'll wipe those tears away
i'll be with you through the day.

'cause you gave me reason to smile
you gave me a reason to live, laugh, and cry.
your sweet, sweet words still linger on my mind,
everything you do, leaves me in a sigh.

i want to sepnd my life, with your sweetes smile.
i want to be with you, even if i have to drive a mile.
you’re my sun during the night,
i won’t complain, even if you blind my sight.

i can’t imagine life without you,
without your gentle face, i will feel blue.
you calm my heart, you ease my pain,
i promise, i’ll be with you even if it rains.

i'll be holding on to you
i'll make you feel how much i love you
i'll wipe those tears away
i'll be with you through the day.

'cause you gave me reason to smile
you gave me a reason to live, laugh, and cry.
your sweet, sweet words still linger on my mind,
everything you do, leaves me in a sigh.

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there, leave a cooment and stuff...:D oh, the accompaniment to the lyrics? i dunno when that'll come...:P anyway, good luck in everything...:D

P.S. i have a plurk account!:D add me up!:D
http://www.plurk.com/uselessbandaid
give me some karma!!!:D

[november 23 2008] boredom...

2008-11-23T15:12:00.000+08:00

comment!:D

[november 20 2008] randomness...

2008-11-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

ok, hindi pa nagstastart yung classes ako...:P

actually 7am, PE class... tapos umuulan-ulan pa... o diba? the best!:P hahahahaha... tapos wala kaming english class kaya walang 10:30am class...:P yung next class naman is SOCIOLOGY3, 1pm... KATAAAAAAMMMMSSSSSS!!!!:)) papasok pa ba ako?:P hahahahaha.... sige na nga! papasok na ako! mahal nga pala tuition fee namin!;)) hahahahahaha...

anyway, i joined plurk nung tuesday.... boredom eh...:P ayun! give me Karma Points!:P hahahaha...

Give Me Some KARMA!:D
http://www.plurk.com/uselessbandaid

sali rin kayo, kung hindi pa!:D
http://plurk.com/redeemByURL?from_uid=3271943&check=1024649492&s=1

[november 14 2008] unfinished...

2008-11-14T14:22:00.000+08:00

so, i've been going to school since last week and i think this semester is going to be exciting... hahahaha.. well, having the tagged "terror" professors is one of the highlights of this sem. hahahaha... Organic Chemistry and BioSci, wahooooo!:)) hahahaha... it'll be fun and exciting...:P hahahaha...
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anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
ELPHIE MARIE F. BUSAYONG!:D

hahahaha... ayun! 18 ka na! wahooo! pede ka na makulong! howyehes!:D hehehehe...:D
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isa pang anyway....:P

i've been trying to finish this poem/song that i'm writing/composing. but it seems that my inspiration to do so is hiding from me... (hindi 'to tao ah... well, partly siguro... opsss!:P hahahaha...) anyway, here it is...:D tell me what you think about the lyrics/poem... ok?:D

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hear me out, say your name
feel my heart, you'll be safe
take my hand, we will fly
just believe, we can try

and i'll be holding on to you
i'll make you feel how much i love you
i'll wipe those tears away
i'll be with you through the day.

'cause you gave me reason to smile
you gave me a reason to live, laugh, and cry.
your sweet, sweet words still lingers on my mind,
everything you do, leaves me in a sigh.

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so, leave a comment...:D

relating this semester to what Jewel of Little Mermaid sang: "it'll be fun, it'll be great, i can't wait!":D hahahahaha...

God Bless everyone! and oh, 41 days till Christmas! gift ko ha?!:D hahahahahaha....:P

[november 11 2008]

2008-11-11T05:12:00.000+08:00

just wanted to post before going to class...:P
class starts at 1pm pa, kaya ayun...:P 1pm-7pm beybeh!:)) hahahahaha...:P
here's a nice song, ndi ko nga lang alam who sang it...:P
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Uyayi

Tulog na aking mahal
Takot ay kalimutan
Di kailanman iiwan
Pagmamahal sayo'y ilalaan

Di hahayaang masaktan
Gabi't araw babantayan
Hangga't ako'y kailangan
Pangako ko'y hindi lilisan

Araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas din ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan din
Bukas ay salubungin

Harapin ang umaga
Dala nito'y pag-asa
Yakapin mo ang ligaya
Pagkat hindi ka na mag-iisa

Araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas din ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan din
Bukas ay salubungin

Tahan na...

Araw ay sisikat din
Magwawakas din ang dilim
Liwanag ay masisilayan din
Bukas ay salubungin

Di na muling luluha pa
Ligaya ay nahanap na...

[november 07 2008] sayang...

2008-11-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

Sayang
©leo.banares

nakatitig nanaman ako,
sa bituing maningning.
iniisip, pinaplano,
kung anong dapat kong gawin.
sa bawat minuto'y ako'y napapaisip,
bakit nilisan ang aking munting langit.?

dumilim ang paligid,
nawala ang saya.
hindi ko na alam,
kung saan pupunta.
sa aking paglayag,
patungo sa'yong pinaroroonan.
aking napansin,
ang puso mong manhid.

sa bawat pag-amin,
ako'y nasugatan.
ang puso ko'y unti-unti nang bumibigay.
sa bawat minuto, ako'y namamatay.
habang ika'y nanonood, tuwang tuwa.

sa aking paglisan, ika'y sumaya,
ang puso ko'y iyong dinala.
nilagay sa garapon,
pinatong sa aparador.
may kinuhang papel,
at dinikit sa pader.

"isang martyr! ako'y inibig.
hindi napansin, ang puso kong manhid.
sayang, kung alam niya lang,
na ang bawat tawa ko'y,
katumbas ng isang garapong luha,
na aking tinatago.
'mahal na pala kita'."
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hanlabo noh??:P hahahaha... 3min poem FTW!:P

[november 07 2008] love (-_-")

2008-11-07T06:11:00.001+08:00

If you love someone, ask them for nothing. Don't hold them back from their destiny. Don't keep them from going off in search of their own answers. Don't ask them for commitment. You will know commitment is real when it is something given willingly, and not as something obligatory. Don't ask them for promises. If you are patient, if you have faith, you will know in your heart when the right time for promises has come.

And when that time arrives, then you will see that you have both lost nothing by setting each other free, and have instead gained a richer, fuller life, a wealth of experiences, and a stronger certainty of your desires.

But should they not return to you, then life hasn't cheated you because no promises were broken. Your bitterness will not last long, and you will feel thankful and blessed that at the very least, this beautiful soul has colored your life, that knowing them has already made life infinitely more meaningful.

By setting a person free, you run a risk of them not returning. But always remember that you found them beautiful precisely because they were free. People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you can't hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever. People CHOOSE to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so many other options. Love has no restrictions and it is through mistakes that sometimes we see the right answer. Because if you love someone, you ask them for nothing and they will come back to you.

reposted from pauline fernandez (that she reposted from erika uichanco, who reposted from ina de guzman)

[november 07 2008] love -_-"

2008-11-07T06:11:00.000+08:00

[october 27 2008] i officially have 7 semesters to go!:P

2008-10-27T14:03:00.000+08:00

hahaha, i went to UST at around 8:30am to enroll. i was able to enroll around 9:30am... hahahaha... saya makisingit!:P JOKE! naiinis lang ako kasi NAUBUSAN NANAMAN KAMI NG MAGANDANG PE! huling PE na nga eh....>.< yan tuloy, i was FORCED to take Sepak Takraw... naman! sa laki kong 'to papa-tumbling-tumblingin niyo ako para sumipa ng rattan ball?!?:)) hahahahaha... anyway, ngayon official na! 7 semesters to go! hahahaha... grabe talaga!P ayun, sino makakasama ko sa PE? taas kamay!:P
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onga pala! may song ako na gusto! hahaha... old song na, pero saya pakinggan ulit...:P
malungkot na song! oo na, emo na kung emo!:P hahahaha... anyway!

What If
Menaya

It's 2 am i feel alone
thinking of you keeps me awake
thinking of you makes me so sad
wonderin how, you'll love me back

What if i try to sleep all day
i think about you everyday..yeah
i picked up the phone and i called you
i just wanna say …'how are you?'
thinking of you makes me so sad
thinking of you makes me so damn crazy

what if i try to run to you
what if i try everything

What if i run, what if i hide
would you care about me
would you ask me how i feel

What if i run, what if i hide
would you care about me
would you ask me how i feel

what if i try to run to you
what if i try everything

What if i run, what if i hide
would you care about me
would you ask me how i feel

What if i cry
what if i die
would you care?…
yeah…
what if i try to run to you…
what if i try everything …

awwww... NATAMAAN AKO DUN! putek!>.<

ingat kayo! UST people: NOVEMBER 3 2008 pasukan ha?!?:D [sure yan!]

babay!

[october 05 2008] "i'm this guy..." and random blahsssss

2008-10-05T13:46:00.001+08:00

so, i found this again after a long time... and i wanted to repost it again...

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait."
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that cried in front of her...
To every guy that she cried in front of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls/texts to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....
To every guy that would give his seat up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to the car and opened the door.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her...

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...

I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this cuz they care more about their image.

If you are a nice guy repost this with: "I'm this guy"

If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way repost this with: "To every guy" :)
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i cannot say that i am really that kind of guy because i don't want to sound narcissistic or something. let my lady-friends be the judge.:D
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it's already october and in two months, it'll be christmas already. finals week is coming and i'm really scared of what might happen. i'm taking a break now from studying physics. gash! physics.>.< hope everything'll be alright! [pray for me!]

october, i remember this month so well.. there were a lot of things that happened on this month dating back from 2004 until 2007... this is the month that i should be happy, why? 'cause my birthday's just around the bend.:D but remembering what happened, i just feel sad and kind of depressed.

i know i don't have the right to feel this way, but i dunno.

nothing still changed, she's still the one.

latest LSS:

"Some try to hand me money they don't understand, I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man, I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do, How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street."
- The Man Who can't be Moved by The Script
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GOOD LUCK SA FINALS! KAYA NATIN 'TO!:D

[october 05 2008] "i'm this guy...

2008-10-05T13:46:00.000+08:00

[september 20 2008] ...

2008-09-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

"msarap pg hinahabol k db? msarap pg my ngmamakaawa na bgyan mo xa ng tym.. msarap pg my ngkkgus2 at nangu2lit sau.. pro nramdaman mo kaya ung sakit at sakripisyo n naranasan nya?"

[august 27 2008] 9:52, a poem

2008-08-27T04:43:00.000+08:00

9:52
©leo.banares

If the stars would fall in the morning,
and the sun would shine at night.
If the rivers flow up-stream,
and the oceans turn sweet.
If the moon sleeps at night,
and wakes up in the morning light,
I'll be loving you.
Impossible as it may seem,
My love for you will remain real.
Even if the fire turns cold,
My love for you will remain forever.
Hold me close,
and never let me go.
I promise forever, I will remain true,
and show you, just how much i love you.

[august 25 2008] crs week schedule

2008-08-25T18:30:00.000+08:00

University of Santo Tomas
College of Rehabilitation Sciences
34th College Week Celebration 2008
REHAB : MY KIND OF HIGH

Monday - September 1, 2008

College Mass - Opening UST Church
College Parade Around Campus
One Day Fair Osmena Drive
MTV Campus Crashers Concert Medicine Auditorium

Tuesday - September 2, 2008

Opening of Amazing Race Med Cat Walk
Indie Films and Documentaries Room 409
Joint Play - CRS Quiz Fest Medicine Auditorium
Fiesta sa Rehab - Agape Dinner Benavides Garden - Lover's Lane

Wednesday - September 3, 2008

Reyes and Reyes Lecture Medicine Auditorium
Wellnes Fair and PT, OT & SPS Exhibit Quadri
Pax Romana Concert Medicine Audi

Thursday - September 4, 2008

Student Forum Medicine Auditorium
Phyt and Thempo Medicine Auditorium

Friday - September 5, 2008

Student's Rights & Welfare Forum Room 409
Mr. & Ms. Rehabilitation Sciences 2008 Medicine Auditorium

*If you guys have ANY questions of somesort feel free to leave a message.
Invitations per class will be given out next week and class presidents,
we hope youre getting your class hyped for
REHAB: My Kind of HIGH:)

HELP THE SC IN INFORMATION DISSEMINATION:

Copy and post to your blog so that EVERYONE will know the schedule!
Thanks everyone, hope you're all excited
at the same time reviewing for the prelims!
Hahaha, Good Luck:)

[july 31 2008] i did something good today...

2008-07-31T12:29:00.000+08:00

during PE class this morning, we were dancing cha-cha when the professor from the other room, folk dance class, started running to our prof. she said her student had a heart attack. she was already unconcious so we carried her. she was heavy. did you know that we weigh twice our weight when we are unconcious? so there... we carried her to a car to be rushed to the UST Hospital. everyone was puzzled and in shock. it was a very... i dunno how to explain it.. the experience was, whoa! i dunno what happened after taking her to the hospital. i hope she's okay. she is a freshman student, because folk dance is only offered to the freshmen. so there.. i did something good today.also, we met pur new guidance counselor a while ago... we had the Meyer-Briggs Test Indicator. you know, when you answer these questions and the tell you about your personality. we took this back in high school [130++ question test] and i remembered i got INTJ. but in college [it was only a 36 question test because of the time], i got INFJ. so, let us see what each means.INTJINTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know. INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest.- INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms.- INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability.- INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers.- Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations. - INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals.- INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand.- Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship.INFJ- INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life.- INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. - They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. - INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. - The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ.- INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. - Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends.- INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication.- In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately. so, from being someone who wants everything to be perfect, someone who wants the work done by himself, someone who wants everything organized, someone who wants everything to work, and someone who's weakness is LOVE.. hahaha. i became someone who wants to help people who are bullied. I became someone who you can't manipulate and someone who has his own stand. realizing LIFE matters to me now. i dunno if this change is for the better... but that last thing there, yea, the one about LOVE... i guess i'll have to face the fact that i still suck at it... hahaha...anyway, God Bless!

[June 27 2008] the red string

2008-06-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

do you know of the red string that binds lovers?
well its just an old hag’s tale.

it was once said that no matter what happens.
if u are fated to that person, both of u would find a way
to meet each other.
but then again, what if the thread is too long?.
So distant and tangled.
Would you risk your everything
to find the other end
walking and searching into the unknown?

you might find a dead end in your journey.
knots that have to be und0ne..
some others that have to be broken
messed up intersections that you have to fix
or confusion that would bring you down.

nver let these things affect you.
something does lie ahead of you.
remember the red string?
all the others are tainted white.
let the heart be the guide
and feelings be the clue.

Things can start. Things can end
but there is never a dead end.
you always have a choice remember?
let the string be the guide. your heart that is.
fate will play its part.
but its you who makes ur destiny.

[June 19 2008] an update...

2008-06-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

i haven't been blogging recently due to the fact that i am in a dormitory near our school. i only acquired internet access last weekend and i got busy in school.

currently, i am part of one of the most awaited event in our college, the MMRS Pageant, aka Mr. and Ms. Rehabilitation Sciences. this event was created to showcase our college's brains with beauty. i am part of the documentations committee and making the logo and looking for photographers has been taking up most of my time. the logo is done, we only need a little editing to make it fit with the theme. the photographer part, on the other hand, i am really having a hard time to look for one, and the photoshoot of the contestants will be already in july. i have less than a month to look for a photographer. so if you're a hobbyist or a freelance photographer, kindly send me a message or an email if you are interested. leo.banares@gmail.com

school started last june 11, it was really unusual... hahaha... different faces and the getting-to-know-you-parts are back.:P well, sort of. school's not yet that busy we have readings in Chemistry and Physics, but that's ok. oh, our english prof., he hasn't shown up for the past three meetings. i think this'll be a fun semester.:) oh, btw, we had our first PE class today, Social Dance PWNED me! hahahaha... my feet hurt hahahaha... but it's fun. dancing and all... hahahaha.. oh yeah, i joined our coleege's commison on elections and it prevented me from being a class officer... hahaha... if i only knew.:P but anyway, try something different for a change, and joining this is really something. we had to run all over the college to be able to let the classes vote for their class officers.:P hahaha.

ok, so how's dorming? it's a bit boring, but it's fun... hahaha... there.:D
update again in the near future...:P hahaha...

take care everyone!:D God bless!:D

[june 02 2008] LOVE, amp!

2008-06-02T16:38:00.000+08:00

GIRL:
If you see me walking the road with someone else ,
It's not because I like his company
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time,
It's not because he pleases me
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.
If you see me falling for someone new,
It's not because I love him
It's because you're not there to catch me if I fall.
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere,
I too don't know where the road is going.
Are we gonna cross each other's path?
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of wath we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with.
Don't let me talk to him,
It's you I want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with/

GUY:
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you,
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the bravery dat stands before me.
Wnen you thought I was too deaf to hear ur heartbeat,
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship.
When u thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance.
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch.
If you feel like you are nowhere,I too am lost.
I too don't know where the road is going.
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone,
I want to walk by your side.
Don't let me talk of someone else,
It's you I want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for someone else,
It's you I want to fall in love with.

"There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving,no matter how hard they try.
I wouldn't expect you to undersatnd that, or even believe it, but trust me, there arr some love that don't go away.
And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebdy who has a little of that insanity.
Somebdy who never let go.
Somebdy who cherihes you forever."

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LOVE, amp!

[May 27 2008] Summer!

2008-05-27T17:24:00.000+08:00

yehey! i have approximately 2 weeks of summer left, then it’s “Hello, School!” again. it’s time for late night studying and insomnia. it’s time fior mugs and mugs of coffee and bottles and bottles of energy drink. but before that, it’s my enrollment tomorrow. it’s time again for that long line, seriously. it’s like you’re walking 4km… hahaha… there are tons and tons of people lining up. the heat of the sun and the sticky feel of the air. nyar!

but there are things that i’m also looking forward too. like, my friends. i get to see them again after almost 2 months of summer vacation. my class schedule, my new blockmates, the physical education class i will take, and a wonderful year ahead!:D hahaha…

[may 21 2008] Summer

2008-05-21T11:15:00.000+08:00

i just came back from UST. i went there because the grades of our summer classes was released. i dunno if i should be happy or i should be depressed. i passed both Comparative Anatomy Lecture and Laboratory. yeah, i passed. but so what? the grade i got was enough to tell me how lax i've been getting. but hey, i passed. i won't be debarred from CRS, nor i would be taken away from my friends. yeah. i'll still be a regular student.

Sophomore Physical Therapy Student. that's what i'll be when i enroll on the 28th. i'm realy excited, but at the same time a bit anxious, of who my future blockmates will be. i'll miss PTC, the bond we made and the good times. it saddens me that we would be alphabetized. but still, we shouldn't forget that bond that we have made.

so, my summer officially starts today. wow! 20 days of summer. classes starts on June 11. i'm looking forward to see my old, and my new classmates.

PTC, bonding after enrollment? hehehehe. miss you guys!

[May 19 2008] only 1,004 people in the world can read this, can you?

2008-05-20T14:30:00.000+08:00

Cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!if you can raed tihs rpsoet it. OLNY RSEPOT IF YOU CAN RAED TIHS. CNAHGE THE NMUERBR AT TOP TGOHUH, "ONLY __ PEOPLE IN THE WORLD CAN READ THIS...CAN YOU?" Go up a nmuber if you can raed it...lte's see how hgih we can get...

[May 11 2008] By The River Piedra.

2008-05-11T11:18:00.000+08:00

i read / collect paulo coelho's books. and thanks to the help of my friends [haze and alma] dumami na ang collection...:P hehehe.

i borrowed "By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept" from one of my classmates [niko] way back in high school. i need to buy my own copy..:P

i found it really good. it's sort of a love story and self realization combined into one. here's an excerpt:
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By the River Piedra I sat down and wept. There is a legend that everything
that falls into the waters of this river--leaves, insects, the feather of birds---is
transformed into the rocks that make the riverbed. I could tear out my heart and hurl
it into the current, then my pain and longing would be over, and I could finally forget.

By the River Piedra I sat down and wept. The winter air chills the tears on my
cheeks, and my tears fall into the cold waters that course past me. Somewhere, this
river joins another, then another, until---far from my heart and sight----all of
them merge with the sea.

May my tears run just as far, that my love might never know that one day
I cried for him. May my tears run just as far, that I might forget the River Piedra,
the monastery, the church in the Pyrenes, the mists, and the paths we walked together.
I shall forget the roads, the mountains, and the fields of my dreams---the dreams
that will never come true.

I remember my "magic moment"---that instant when a "yes or a "no" can change one's
life forever. It seems so long ago now. It is hard to believe that it was only last week
that I had found my love once again, and then lost him.

I am writingthis story on the bank of the River Piedra. My hands are freezing, my legs
are numb, and every minute I want to stop.

"Seek to live. Remembrance is for the old," he said.

Perhaps love makes us old befor our time--or young, if youth has passed.
But how can I not recall those moments? That is why I write---to try to turn sadness
into longing, solitude into remembrance. So that when I finish telling myself the story, I can toss it into the Piedra. That's what the woman who has given me shelter told me to do. Only
then---in the words of one of its saints---will the water extinguish waht the flames have written.

All love stories are the same.

- "By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept", Paolo Coehlo

[April 12 2008] sa mga kaibigan...

2008-04-12T07:54:00.000+08:00

time after time, you made me believe everything, as in everything, is possible. and you know what, i believed in myself, because you always believed in me. i've gotten lost so many times, but you've been my flashlight. okay, cge, hindi flashlight. you've been my diva lights, you've been brighter than my studio lights combined. in the darkness i found my way. i've gotten weak, but you've been like a multivitamin, strengthening my soul. you and i can't count how many times i've fallen. sometimes because matigas ang ulo ko, i looked without really measuring the depth. other times, because i was pushed to the very edge. but you're better than any parachute, because you are my wings. i should, in fact, be at rock-bottom, but because of you, i've only soared higher. huwag na natin bilangin ang oras. alam naman natin, that our friendship is beyond the here and now. 'yun i know, for sure. we'll see each other in heaven.

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i took this from Boy Abunda's album, Love Life. it was his conversation with Kris Aquino. this track is called, Loving a Friend, conversation with Kris Aquino.

para 'to sa mga kaibigan ako. alam kong minsan may mga nagawa akong mali sa inyo. minsan hindi ko napapansin na nakakasakit na pala ako. gusto kong mag-sorry sa inyo. sa lahat ng nagawa ko. alam kong mali ako sa kung anumang kasalanan ko. grabe, minsan kasi gawa lang ako ng gawa na hindi ko na napapansin na mali na pala. hindi ako yung tipo ng tao na nagkikimkim ng sama ng loob. sasabihin ko sa'yo kung may problema ako sa'yo. sana kayo rin ganun. hindi ako naninira ng reputasyon ng ibang tao.

oo, minsan nangbaback-stab ako, pero hindi yung tipong sinisiraan ko na yung tao sa iba. hindi ako naninira ng pagkatao ng iba, lalo na kung kaibigan ko. kung gawin ko man yung pambaback-stab, i make sure na may mukha pang ihaharap yung taong iyon. masama manira ng puri ng iba.

madali ako magpatawad. kung may away, pag-usapan natin. mahirap kasi isipin na may taong galit sa'yo, lalo na kung kaibigan mo, diba? ayun. walalang. gandang pagnilayan nung conversation eh.

last, gusto ko magpasalamat sa mga kaibigan kong namalagi sa tabi ko tuwing may problema ako. salamat. dun naman sa mga nagbibigay ng moral support, salamat rin. dun sa mga hindi ko gaano kinakausap pero tinutuing kong kaibigan, salamat rin. salamat sa pangungutya, panggago, at pang-inis, dahil dun mas nakilala ko pa sarili ko. salamat sa lahat. salamat kasi tinanggap ninyo ako na kung sino ako.

ang mga sumusunod na tao ay mga nakatulong sa akin tuwing may problema ako, maraming maraming salamat:
brice - kaibigan na kita simula pa grade 7. at isa ka sa mga taong parating andyan kung kelangan ko ng makakausap. salamat.

rich - isa ka sa naunang nakaalam tunkol kay **m**. sobrang salamat, kahit na makulit na ako, hindi ka pa rin lumayo.

dana s. - ikaw rin. you've given me almost every advice that you can give. pero hindi ko naman nasunod. pero kahit papaano, you're still there for me.

geelo at bam - tinulungan niyo ako kung may kailangan ako ibigay/kunin kay **m**. maraming salamat.

chinee and erika - thank you for keeping me company whenever wala akong ibang mapagsabihan ng iba kong problems. thank you talaga.

mela - salamat sa mga realization mo tuwing naguusap tayo. dami ko natututunan.

alex - ikaw yung matyagang nagrereply sa 'gm' ko na quotes. kahit papaano, nakakagaan ng loob kasi ang reply mo parati ay: "para kang yung lola ko...". salamat.

BA at BU - salamat sa pakikiramay. sa pagtulong sa mga problema ko kahit na hindi masyado visible, thanks parin.

meeyo - naging close lang tayo nung 3rd yr dba. pero natatandaan ko, tayong 2 una sa classroom nung 2nd year. nagbabasa ka pa nga ng libro nun eh. adik ka. pero, thanks sa lahat ng tulong na binibigay mo sa akin these past few weeks. salamat.

rp - wow, nabuhay ka ulit. alam ko hindi magganda yung naging samahan natin dati *points at your palanca letter nung retreat namin*. pero ngyon, sinusubukan mo naman aking tulungan. salamat rin.

hazael - you never fail to comfort me whenever i feel down. and sobrang tulong na nabigay mo sa akin. thank you.

abby - first college friend. salamat sa mga tulong mo, advice, pangungutya, et. salamat talaga!

ang dami pa. tutuloy ko nalang next time. salamat ha? sana maplantsa na ang gusot sa pagsasama natin! sobrang salamat!

- leo, http://otiosetabularasa.wordpress.com

[April 11 2008] BF/GF Survey

2008-04-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

taken from ranny!:D

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01. Dapat ba gwapo/ maganda?
- nde naman.

02. Matalino?
- ndi yung sobrang talino. yung okay lang.

03. Preferred age?
- younger [1 year?:)] or same age.

04. Preferred height?
- hindi maliit hindi rin matangkad. yung tama lang. pero it depends rin...:)

05. How about sense of humor?
- okay yun.:)

06. How about piercings?
- hanggang ear piercings lang siguro. pero pwede pagusapan.:)

07. Accepts you for who you are?
- yep. kung mahal ko, handa ako magbago [for the better...:)]

08. Pink hair?
- nope

09. Mushy or no?
- a little bit, pwede rin sobra. para sweet relationship...:)

10. Thin or fat?
- yung tama lang...:D [mataba ako eh...:(]

11. Morena or chinita or mestisa?
- kahit ano.:)

12. Long Hair or Short Hair?
- any length basta hindi lalampas ng mid-back :)

13. Plastic or Metal?
- ayoko ng plastic. ayoko rin ng pusong metal.:)

14. Smells good?
- should be..:)

15. Smoker?
- an BIG NO!

16. Drinker?
- occasional drinker

17. Girl-next-door type?
- yap

18. Musically inclined?
- kahit hindi :)

19. Plays piano?
- don't care

20. Plays bass and acoustic guitar?
- don't care

21. Plays violin?
- don't care

22. Sings very good?
- don't care

23. Vain?
- hindi sobrang vain.:)

24. With glasses?
- kahit meron, kahit wala.:)

25. With braces?
- kahit meron, kahit wala.:)

26.Shy type?
- mahinhin? puwede, basta hindi sobrang shy.:)

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
- good girl :)

28. Active or passive?
- active

29. Sporty or bum?
- any. pero mas sporty.:)

30. Singer or dancer?
- any ulit. pero actually, don't care!:)

31.Suplada/suplado?
- kahit suplada, mamahalin ko parin. basta hindi sobra.:)

32. Hiphop?
- don't care

33. Earrings?
- yeah

35. Torpe?
- may babae bang torpe?:P

36. Mr. or Ms. count-my-ex-till-u-drop?
- ok lang. basta hindi yung lalampas ng 3..:P

37. Dimples?
- don't care

38. Bookworm?
- don't care

39. MS. love letter?
- sana.:)

40. Makulit?
- yung tamang kulit lang.:)

41. Flirt?
- kung sa akin, okay lang.:)

42. Poem writer?
- don't care

43. Serious?
- basta nasa tamang lugar at panahon.:)

44. Campus crush?
- don't care. swerte ko kung ganon.:P

45. Painter?
- don't care

46. Religious?
- ahhh... yung hindi sobra-sobra.

47. Alaskador/a?
- wag naman. baka ako pa alaskahin eh.:P

48. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
- don't care

49. Speaks 20 languages?
- don't care. basta ba turuan niya ako para we can say "i love you" to each other in 20 languages eh.:D

50. Loyal o faithful?
- puwedeng both?:D both nalang!:)

[April 10 2008] inspirational song

2008-04-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

My Soldier
Aj Rafael

When you're feeling sad and blue, don't you know that I will always,
Be here for you.
When everything just makes us go out of our minds, just know that I will always,
Have the time for you.
You say that I am your influence. You should know that you inspire me.
Now until the end.
I'll help you get through the thick and thin and I know you'll remember when.
I say.

You are strong, strong as a soldier. Even when winds are tough you'll always keep it together. You are strong, strong as a soldier. I know you'll get through anything. 'Cause you're strong, strong, strong as a soldier.

When the waves are crashing down. Can't get up. Just know I'll,
Pick you up from the ground.
When it feels like everything goes wrong, just remember to listen to this song.

You are strong, strong as a soldier. Even when winds are tough you'll always keep it together. You are strong, strong as a soldier. I know you'll get through anything. 'Cause you're strong, strong, strong as a soldier.

Don't you worry about the obstacles to your happiness. If you let them get to you, you'll endure just like the rest. I know your'e better than those people who get in the way. Just remember what I always say.

You are strong, strong as a soldier. Even when winds are tough you'll always keep it together. You are strong, strong as a soldier. I know you'll get through anything. 'Cause you're strong, strong, strong as a soldier. You are are strong, strong, strong as a soldier. Strong, strong, strong as a soldier.

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this is for everyone. it's such a nice song about friendship and i guess, life. marami man tayong hirap o pagsubok na papagdaanan, we must always remember na hindi tayo nag-iisa sa pagharap ng mga ito. we have our friends, family, and our peers to support us and be there for us.

"You are strong as a soldier."
a soldier never gives up on a fight. he never quits instead he tries to face all the challenges because he knows that in the end, there will be a great reward. don't take it literally, or baka naman maging mababaw kayo and say that "soldiers die diba?" it's just the thought that we should never give-up on anything that we have to face. sometimes it's really hard and sometime it's easy.

be strong both outside and inside. and remember that you have friends to turn to when you feel like surrendering to the challenges life gives you. and also remember that God doesn't give us challenges that we can not face. lahat ng bagay may dahilan. at lahat ng bagay may lunas. kaya kung feeling niyo gusto niyo nang sumuko. face the mirror, tell yourself "be strong, kaya mo yan!" and give yourself a big smile!:D

[April 07 2008] Ganito lang ka-simple...

2008-04-07T02:42:00.000+08:00

"huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makita na hinahawakan ng iba."

ganyan lang kadali. [period]
comment na yan!:D

You're from the AHS if....

2007-11-12T20:41:00.000+08:00

Alam mo ang Ad Majorem dei Gloriam.
Alam mo ang Lux-in-Domino
Alam mo ang Magis!
Alam mo ang slogan ng Sanggu-HS na "become a Transforming Difference" at "Fight the Status Quo"
Napanood mo ang Hervacio Tubulan [ 5 times! Nakatulog ka na sa covered courts dahil kay Fr. Ampil Nahuhulaan mo na kung anong movie ang gagamitin ni Mrs. Oracion sa kaniyang welcoming speech.] at malamang akala mo na totoong word sa dictionary ang "dementors."] Malamang din, ginamit mo yan sa isa sa mga essays mo.
Marunong kang magtalaksan ng upuan dahil kay Mr. San Pedro
Alam mo kung ano ang Schola Brevis
Sawang-sawa ka na sa pagiging Man for and with others
Alam mo ang "Begin With the End in Mind" o "The failure to plan is a plan to failure"
Alam mo na ang SRP ay hindi acronym ng Sarap
Nabati ka na ng Dulaang Sibol ng "Thank you for watching!"
Nasaksihan mo na ang Dulaang Sibol na kumanta ng Seasons of Love sa bawat taon na ginawa ng diyos.
Kilala mo si Big-Boy
Alam mo na ang EDSA ay hindi kalsada kundi isang mahabang corridor
Alam mo kung nasaan ang Batcave
Landmark sa iyo ang "Mango Tree"
Alam mo na ang "Feel the Pain" tuwing PE
Nandaya ka na sa mga running excersises ng PE
Nakapagpa-page ka na sa faculty
Alam mo na masamang bagay ang Poste at Jug
Bahagi na ng iyong buhay ang Nutrilicious
Ang tawag mo sa mga tao sa cafeteria ay Pal
Nagiging salesman ka tuwing Katipunan Fund Drive
Nagiging athlete ka tuwing Intrams
Nakakakita ka ng maraming artista tuwing Intrams Opening
Sumasakit ang balakang mo sa Fun Run -] Madalas, hindi rin siya fun.
Kinakareer ng bawat klase ang Palig
Nagpapagalingan ang mga klase sa paramihan ng kortina
Nabighani ka kahit minsan kay Ms. Laserna, Ms. Navarro, o kaya kay Ms. Besinga
O-Bento ang pinakamatagal na kainan
Kung sakaling 2003 ka pumasok sa HS at nagtapos ka ng 2007, isang beses lamang hindi naging kampyon ang Eaglets, at ito ay nung 3rd year ka. [ magaling juniors eh
Masarap masaksihan ang victory bonfire
Nagkakandarapa ang karamihan sa pagkuha ng mga libreng Gen Ad tickets mula sa APSA
Inaabangan mo ang bagong field girl ng Eagles sa bawat season ng UAAP [ lia cruz is the best
Nalulungkot ka dahil walang field girl ang Eaglets. (so sad...field gays perhaps?)
Ang dalawang pangunahing naamoy mo sa araw-araw ay damo at lupa
Sapilitan kang pinapanood ng spectacular comedy ng Jesuit communications na Idol: Pag-Asa ng Bayan [ COMEDY TALAGA
Dinugo ka sa hirap ng mga Math Achievement tests
Dinugo ka sa hirap ng QBASIC o kaya Turbo-C [ tanginang game design yan
Napikon ka kay Sir Edge sa paulit-ulit na pagpapagawa sa iyo ng proposal (peace tayo sir Edge)
Alam mo ang F! Pa
Solid ang linggo ng wika ng High School
Ang Filipino Department ang pinaka-astig at may pinakamaraming lalaking guro na departamento
Alam mo at hindi mo itatangging "you can't spell GUWAPO without APO" [ HELL YEAH!!
Alam mo ang konsepto ng Hamsfil
Dinugo ka sa Florante at Laura, pati na rin sa Noli at Fili
Sa Bigkasan ka lang pumapasa sa Filipino
May Bigkas exam at Sulat Exam
Alam mong maraming pagkain tuwing Mass of the Holy Spirit
Malaki ang ostya ng Ateneo High School
Hindi ka pa rin kumbinsido kung lalaki nga si Fr. Kit Bautista (hmm issue)
Napipikon ka tuwing CAT
Napikon ka na minsan kay Sir Salcedo [ tangina niya
Nakakakita ka ng mga nagpapaikot ng riple sa 4th year quad
Kilala mo si Bearnadette
Kilala mo si Roxanne
Pumupunta kang library dahil kay Daria
Nakakatulog ka tuwing Reflection period
Gumagawa ka ng homework sa umaga o kaya sa 5-minute break
Pinapangarap mong pumasa sa Physics
Nahirapan kang paganahin ang baloon car mo o kaya ang inyong chain reaction
Nakapagtanim ka na ng puno para sa bio
Nakagawa ka na ng alak!
Nakapaglaro ka na ng DOTA
Alam mo ang GG na pow to
Natalo ka na ng bading sa DOTA
Kilala mo si Gian Chiu na 6'5 [ 6'7 na ngayon! at NBA prospect!
Alam mo ang WAKI
Nagtataka ka pa rin kung bakit mas mahirap ang Filipino ng pangkat M
Apat lang ang gusto mong pasukan sa Pilipinas: UP, Ateneo, La Salle, o UST [ not lasalle. eww
Second choice mo kadalasan ang UP kahit na mas mahirap makapasok dito
Alam mo kung kailan dapat gamitin ang rito at dito at ang ng at nang
Pinagtitinginan ka ng mga tao sa ibang lugar dahil sa kakaiba mong blue polo at brown pants
Masaya ka tuwing Soiree
Marami kang pinupuntahang fair ng mga girl schools
Namamahalan ka sa presyo ng Ateneo Fair
Ang mga pangalan ng fair mo ay may kinalaman sa numero (Levit8t, pIXel, Hel10s, at Chi11)
Nagfafaircom staff ka para sa mga libreng entrance [Mayroong kang 3-straight shirt kahit hindi naka 3-straight ang eaglets
Sumisigaw ka ng "Go Ateneo" tuwing kakantahin ang "Song For Mary"

First year:
Nakitambay ka pa sa mga dati mong kaklase noong Grade 7 ka.
Gumawa kayo ng sarili niyong ecosystem sa isang lalagyan ng mineral water.
Nakilala niyo si Cora delos Santos.
May libro ka ngang, "The Bible And You," pero hindi mo binasa.

Second year:
Sawa ka nang magsulat ng mga journal para sa CSP.
Nalimutan niyong magdala ng frog para sa Bio.
Nainis ka dahil sa IP na pagtanim ng puno.
Natuwa ka sa mga interaction.
Pumunta ka ng Soph Night (the date is a moot point.)
Nainis ka dahil nawala mo ang bagong-bago na Bio book.

Third year:
Masaya ka kasi ang ganda ng dismissal time mo.
Nangolekta kayo ng tubig na may lamang God-knows-what para sa Chem.
Umiyak ka dahil sa practical exam sa Computer involving Microsoft Excel and VLOOKUP.
Nag-prom ka sa high school grounds. [Akala mong sabog ang prom dahil sa high school grounds ginawa, but you were sorely mistaken. [ hell yeah! prom was astig!
Nag-days with the Lord ka!
Napa-whoa ka sa To Kill A Mockingbird.
Tinawanan mo ang Chem book na makapal kasi hindi naman masyadong ginamit. <<< 3 ang chem book namin nun. puta

Fourth year:
Nagpirmahan kayo ng pangalan sa polo mo nung last days. << KASAMA AKO SA PINAGALITAN NI NASH NUNG LAST DAY SA COV COURTS! HHAHAA
Kumuha ka ng review classes para sa entrance exams, hindi para mag-review, kun'di para maka-kilala ng mga tao.
Nagwawala kayo noong last day of classes.
Nag-alala ka sa magiging resulta ng UPCAT/ACET/(school na gusto mo)
Hassle para sa iyo ang position paper sa English.
Natuwa ka sa Catcher In The Rye.
Malupit ang Grad Ball mo.
Inter-class DotA matches were nearly as heated as intrams.
Tumayo ka ng higit sa isang oras para sa Military Mass (lupit ng batch natin, walang casualty!)
Gumawa ka ng mga bamboo instrument na pagka-sabog-sabog.
Nagsulant ka ng kanta na pagka-keso-keso.
Napamahal ka sa mga TD Kids mo.
Dinala mo ang TD kids mo sa school para sa fair. [ hindi. hehehe
Binisita mo ang mga bahay ng mga TD kids mo para sa project.
Nanghihiram ka na lang ng lesson plan ng kaklase para sa TD dahil tinatamad ka na.
Binaboy mo ang huling Filipino exam dahil 'yun na ang pinaka-huling exam mo sa high school.
Nag-exit interview ka.
Alam mo ang ibig-sabihin ng break and insert!!

Over-all:
Naglalaro kayo ng card games sa mga classroom.
May mga planner nga na binibigay ang school pero hindi mo ginagamit.
Alam mo tuwing P.E. na dapat kang mag-"Enjoy life."
Nagtapon ka na ng clay sa ceiling.
Mas gusto mong mag-banyo sa MST/ITC/Library. :)) [ malinis dun pare
Mahilig kang mag-vandalize ng mga table sa ABS-CBN at Class 70.
Alam mo ang mga kuwento tungkol sa Mango Tree, ABS-CBN, at Class 70.
Maangas ka sa mga lower batches, especially kapag third year ka at nagfa-finals ang fourth year.
Nagiging nostalgic ka dahil sa mga ganitong blog entry. :P

Kung batch '07 ka:
Masaya ka nung Prom '06 dahil may tatlong chocolate fountain: white, milk at dark.
Di ka masaya nung Grad Ball '07 kasi isa lang yung chocolate fountain at naubos ito pagkatapos lang ng isang oras.
Alam mo na 'pag late yung computer teacher mo, kakatapos lang nya mag-DoTA
Kilala mo si Gico Sinjian
Kilala mo ang mga bandang Tansan ni Gaston tsaka Hansom
Kilala mo si Claude Dietrich (tama ba?)
Kung taga section C,D,G,H,I,J ka, kilala mo si Zapata
Pinagtawanan mo si Mamonluk nung CAT graduation <<< samaa!!!
Kilala mo si Gio Tingson at ang papel nya sa DWTL
Galit ka sa Hale at Cueshe, at alam mong na-ban ang Kjwan sa AHS dahil kay Marc.

kilala mo si mamonluk
alam mo na nagkamali ng song dun sa national anthem sa pasamasid

nakatae ka na sa school
kilala ka ng mga tao sa COOP at sa nestle at sa nutrilicious
masarap ang mga rice with ulam in a bowl/box
alam mo ang creative stuff
alam mo ang CLAYGO

alam mo na nakangiti si ser DelaCruz magalit
nakikishare ka ng inumin kung kanikanino lang
nagpapalibre ka
humihingi ka ng mga piso o mag barya
humihingi ka ng papel sa seatmate mo
nakapagbigay ka na ng papel sa seatmate mo
isang linggo ka nang walang papel
isang linggo na walang papel seatmate mo

nag lecture na kayo nang brown out
nahuli ka na ng APSA
umikot ka na ng malaking ikot para lang iwasan si Sir Nacionales and Sir SanPedro
naka kopya ka na ng homework
nagpakopya ka na ng homework

nanduktor ka na ng papel
nangodigo ka
sinulatan mo ang calculator mo ng formula [sinulatan mo ang desk mo ng formula
sinulatan mo ang pader ng formula

inabangan mo na ang ST-Modem week na HALF DAY BUONG WEEK
inabangan mo ang iba pang weeks na half day
alam mo ang wrap up day
memorized mo ang holidays ng saints
memorized mo ang iba pang holidays
alam mo na may sariling holidays ang ateneo like Victory Day (kahit walang victory)

nagtetext ka sa klase
may tumunog na na phone sa klase
alam mo na kwarto ang ABS CBN
kung 4th year ka o madalas ka ma late, alam mo na studyante ang nagtataas ng Flag

na WEH ka na
nagcharge ka na sa classroom ng phone or ipod
nakapag classnight ka na
nagtanong ka na sa YM o txt kung ano ang HW.
natanong ka na kung ano ang HW, at ikaw rin mismo ay di mo alam
nagtanong ka ng homework, at nang malaman mong madali, di mo rin ginawa at nag cram ka nalang kinabukasan sa school

bahay mo na ang classroom
hindi ka talaga nakinig sa promotion ng fair ng exclusive girls school
nahuli ka ni Mr. Tomas dahil wala kang ID
hindi mo sinusunod ang SILENCE BELL [ pero nakakamiss
hindi mo na kinakanta ang Lupang Hinirang
noong first year ka, naWEH mo and 1A dahil panalo sila sa mga academic contests << hindi namin sila wineh
kilala mo si Juno Siojo
kung ginawa mong tambayan ang org mo, hindi ka na nagorg noong 3rd year
o kaya tiniis mo ang org para lang magka Loyalty Award
nastigan ka sa Graduation Speech pagkatapos ng apat na taon ng walang kwentang mga speech
naiinis ka dahil ngayon lang narenovate ang AHS
nagpa-light duty ka sa CAT dahil tinamad ka lang
natulog ka habang sinasagot ang NCAE
pinagisipan mo kung bakit nagka-number one ranking ang Taal National High School sa NCAE << number one naman sa pilipinas si renz jader
pumupunta ka sa school kahit sabado
madalas meeting place ay ang McDo Katipunan
natutulog ka habang school-wide Mass
humingi ka ng size 1 sa katabi mo kahit sinabi ng guro na bawal
memorize mo ang Prayer for Generosity
palaging nasa prayer mo ang mga salitang "Lord, we thank you for this day. Please help us in..." at ang "St. Ignatius, pray for us."
alam mo ang pusa sa may vendo
naka-"Failure to do assigned task" ka na ng maraming beses
na "Failure to serve _____" ka na
hindi kumpleto ang mga libro mo kapag returning of textbooks

[blogging | early in the morning]

2007-06-13T05:16:00.000+08:00

so, it's my first day today, and i woke up sooo early[4:30am], hahaha... i'm not that excited in school though. new people, new environment.

exposure!

hahaha... but still, after that good night sleep, i'm looking forward to it.

looking forward to see: erika, paulo, sd, tj, robin, leech, joby, capao,
and all the other USTe people. wahahaha...

ayun, i'll be going with my mom to her meeting, then she'll drive me to UST...:D
my classes is at 11am pa up until 7pm...>.<

USTe first day post later... see you...:D

taking a new path

2007-05-03T06:48:00.001+08:00

high school's over, and we have approximately a month and a week before classes. yeah, i enrolled in the University of Santo Tomas, College of Rehabilitation Sciences Physical Therapy last april.24,2007. I must say, sobrang iba siya sa enrollment ng high school… the heat, the long lines, the different places/buildings to go to, the different people you meet, the different fees you pay… :sigh: I’m starting to feel college life… ‘cause right now, I’m an official Thomasian.

I will really miss high school. Especially the people I met there. The lessons I learned the walks through EDSA, the lounging at the CMO… etc. I guess this would be the right time to thank everyone who went with me through my journey in high school.

I would like to thank my family, especially my parents, who supported me all throughout. Kahit na I encountered failing marks, they were always there for me to push me.

my first year class and teachers; 1-J; ms. Buen, mr. carvajal, mr. quimpo, mr. lacson, ms. Pangan, ms. , mr. sediego, and mr. carlon.

my second – fourth year class; e2007 [buh, benedict, tj, barranco, dan, buenavista, miggy, meeyo, angelo, tetch, jadd, lester, garcia, chino, gab, jules, fj, john, Andrew, lising, Ervin, andre, Josef, ae, sandoy, mico, tom, franco, david, Olivares, ed, paco, robin, diego, aj, presby, sd, niko, and gamo]
dahil sa inyo…
… natuto akong maging independent.
… nakita ko na may kabutihan sa lahat ng tao, gaano man siya kasama.
… natuto akong magtiwala.
… natuto akong makinig at tumanggap ng mga comments o papuri.
… nakita ko na kapag may problema ka, may matatakbuhan ka, kahit na hindi mo maisip na lapitan ‘tong taong ‘to.
… nakita ko na kaya natin, basta tulong-tulong.
… natuto ako na magpursige sa lahat ng ginagawa ko.

my second year teachers; ms. Pangan [again], ms. Olmos, ms. Dela paz, ms. Cruz, mrs. Regino, mr. falgui, mr. san pedro, mr. pineda, mrs. Dimaculangan, mr. olalia, ms. De luna, mrs. Vizconde - roldan, and mrs. Ducepec.

My third year teachers; ms. Antonio, mr. apo, mr. angeles, mr. valasote, mrs. Ong, mrs. Arandia, mr. pavia, mr. baclao, ms. Natividad, and mr. salva.

My fourth year teachers; mrs. Sacluti, mrs. Ducepec [again], mrs. Dango, mr. galinato, mr. Ortiz, mr. yucoco, mr. de leon, mr. valasote [again], mr. dela cruz, mr. nolasco, and mrs. Escarez.

Ms. Dia sales, my Pugad moderator, thank you for believing in my skills in writing poetry. Thank you for trusting me with various org matters.:D also, thank you po for the spider necklace, I was not able to hear the explanation nga lang.

My friends; marami kayo, so ayun…:D [kamusta naman yun?!?]

Special mention [may ganun?!]; meeyo, rich, bam, geelo, Ralph, erikaP, erikaR, chinee, kooky, mela, brice, and dana. Thanks for being always there for me, kapag kailangan ko ng advices, buti nalang at nariyan kayo para malapitan. You all know my case, and kahit paano, you helped me go through it. Salamat ng sobra.:D

dwtL Community, for believing in my skills and for making me realize that there are other people like me, whom I can talk to and approach. Thank you for making me realize that Kuya Jess will never leave me, and that He will make sure that I am not alone.

dwtL211, even though we haven’t had much time to get to know each other, I still thank you for accepting me as a brother.

Mommy ghelle, daddy gio, and ninong guibs, thank you for taking care of me during my dwtL retreat.:D the best kayo!!:D

dwtL226, the 42 tones that completed my harmony, salamat ss inyo, dahil sa inyo marami akong natutunan. Sorry ulit if I wasn’t able to bond with you guys during your days. Pero diba, binabawi ko naman??:D hayaan niyo, magkakaroon tayo ng gateway escapade…:D hehehe… [kausapin niyo si brice…]

so ayun… I guess dito na nagtatapos isa pang libro ng buhay ko. Salamat sa inyong lahat! :BIG HUG:

abangan…

“Taking a New Path: a Journey through College” by Leo
[kamusta naman yun?!? May ganun?!?]

pagninilay [emo ba?]

2006-12-26T02:34:00.000+08:00

getting emo lately... at realization narin... sorry kung malabo, my mind's not functioning correctly...:))

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Sa ating mga magtatapos, hindi maalis sa ating mga isipan ang mga bagay na hindi natin malilimutan sa mataas na paaralan. At siguro, ngayon palang ay naiisip niyo na ang mga bagay-bagay tulad ng mga “huling” mga Gawain sa mataas na paaralan. Nariyan ang “huling” Mass of the Holy Spirit, “huling” field trip, “huling” sport’s fest, “huling” KFD, “huling” PaLig, “huling” Christmas Mass at Party na magkakasama, at “huling” markahang pagsusulit sa silid-aralan. Kung inyong natatandaan ang mga magtatapos ay kumukuha ng huling markahang pagsusulit sa binubungang basketbolan o and Covered Courts. Ganito ang ginagawa dahil gusto sabihin ng Ateneo na, “Ito ang lugar kung saan kayo nagsimula, at dito rin kayo magtatapos.”

Sabi nila noong bagong salta pa lamang tayo sa mataas na paaralan ay, "ito ang magiging mabilis at pinakamasayang apat na taon ng buhay niyo." Siguro sa iba’y hindi at sa iba nama’y oo. Siguro nga may mga bagay na nagpatibay at nagpahina sa atin sa pagtapak natin ng mataas na paaralan. Pero sana tandaan natin na ang lahat ng ito ay binigay sa atin hindi upaang pahinain tayo, kundi para patatagin ang ating kalooban at pananampalataya. Alam naman natin lahat na walang taong perpekto. Kailangan natin magkamali upang matuto at upang mapatibay ang ating sarili.

Ilang buwan nalang ang natitira at malapit na natin maasam ang ating mga pangarap, ang maka-akyat ng entablado upang tanggapin ang ating diploma. Hindi natin maiiwasan na balik-balikan ang mga araw mula unang taon hanggang sa kasalukuyan. Siguro minsan, sa paglalakad natin sa EDSA, maaalala natin ung mga araw na nagmamadali tayo makapunta sa MST. Yung titigil at mag-uusap sa gitna ng EDSA. Pakikipag-kulitan sa ating mga guro, at siguro yung mga simpleng batia lang. sa pagbisita natin sa ating mga lumang silid-aralan ay hahanapin natin ang bawat marka ng alaalang iniwan natin. Siyempre hindi ito yung vandalism, pero isang bakas na parang masasabi natin na, “I Was Here.”

Sa mga huling buwan, araw, oras, minuto, at segundo natin sa mataas na paaralan ay lubusin na natin ito. Sa pag-alala ng mga masasayang araw noong mga nakaraang taon, pag-aayos ng mga pagkakaibigang nasira, paghihingi ng patawad at pagpapatawad, at ang pag-tama sa mga pagkakamali. Hindi naman lahat ng ito’y matutupad sa isang iglap. Kailangan natin magsikap at magpursige upang maayos ang lahat ng ito. Siguro oras na para maayos natin ang lahat ng ating problema, hindi maganda magtapos ng may kaaway ka. Hindi rin maganda magtapos na may galit ka sa isang tao. Humigit kumulang 2 buwan nalang ang nalalabi, maayos kaya natin ang ating mga problema? Makakamartsa at makaaakyat na ba tayo sa entablado?

Ikaw lang ang makakasagot niyan. Pag-isipan mo?

diyes y' otso... eighteen...

2006-10-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

It was just like yesterday that I was just a small boy wandering around, looking for answers to my questions. I didn’t even know what things were back there. I didn’t know what love was, what happiness was, what’s the difference between good or bad, and all that other stuff.

And then I started entering school… the years that I spent in a classroom with wooden chairs with arm rests. The different faces I meet and see everyday. The different things I learn about life. The friends I get to have and talk to. At first I was not really into going to school and learning stuff, but I guess the friends you get to see and the problems you get to face made me a better person. My school helped me to become a better person. Even though I don’t get honors and high grades, I learned many things. I learned that life is full of challenges. That it isn’t all about fun and games. That there are times when we need to be serious in everything that we do everyday. My school taught me how to be a good person, a good friend. My school also taught me how to socialize and be more spiritual. And it is in this school that I met most of the friends I have, the friends that are always there for me whenever I need help in anything.

Now, I am 18. How does it feel, you might ask? I guess it feels the same, but there’s this thought that you’re getting older. I know this is the stage where people tell you “Legal Ka Na! [You’re legal already!]” Because when you’re 18 you can do almost everything. Being 18 isn’t really a great thing. Well, for me at least. There are still restrictions and I know that I still have my responsibilities. Well,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Thank you for the people who greeted me:
Arvic. Gio. Ate2. Dad. Mom. Ate1. Benedict. Niko. Lester. Meeyo. 4E, to some 226 who were able to write in the card. Geanu. Mommy Ghelle. Jhobee. KP. Bryce. Eryke. Kid. Fael. Tekla. Tita. Cousins. Lola. Rich. Capao. Mrs. Sacluti. Mr. Galinato. Jadd. Jules. Buh.

Thank You. And sa iba na nakalimutan ko… Thank You!:D

Now I’m 18, what’s next? Another chapter of “my book of life” is starting to begin. Will I finally get into a relationship? Will I have more friends? What college will I be into? What course? What grades will I get?

Lastly, I Love You, xa(^-^o)…:D

a sad j.dorama...

2006-10-03T18:52:00.000+08:00

yes, i just watched a japanese drama on youtube... it's based on true life.. it's title is "Ichi Rittoru no Namida" or "One Liter of Tears"... it's the type of drama that will make your tears fall from the first episode up to the last... here's the synopsis...

"15-year-old Ikeuchi Aya was an ordinary girl, the daughter of a family who works at a tofu shop, and a soon-to-be high schooler. However, odd things have been happening to Aya lately. She has been falling down often and walks strange. Her mother, Shioka, takes Aya to see the doctor, and he informs Shioka that Aya has spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. How will Aya react when told about her disease? And how will Aya live from now on?" -wiki.d-aadicts

i really liked this japanese drama a lot and i am recommending it to all of you...

here's the ending theme song "Only Human" by K:

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru?

Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi

Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume

Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru
Kisetsu hazure no himawari

Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru

Kodoku ni mo nareta nara
Tsuki akari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou
Motto mae he susume

Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume

below is the a video with some clips from the series... if you want to watch t in youtube... click ->here<-

and here is the video...

also, here is the english translation of the lyrics...

"Only Human" by K

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go forward, just a little further

As the rain clouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on

new layout for a new term...

2006-09-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

ok, so i haven't changed the layout for what?!? ages!!!:P hahaha... and now i decided to change it...:P

inspired be Fame Academy 2002 winner, David Sneddon. he's such a good singer and composer. i really like the song here. here's the lyrics, a much bigger one...:)) hehehe..

Don't Let Go
David Sneddon

i don't even know if i can cry
been so long it feels like I ran dry
something in your eyes tonight
looked into my soul
saw the years of breaking down had taken it's toll
so I'm leaning on you now into the night
don't let go
don't let go
don't wanna let you go

now i'm on the rocks i see your light
i don't need my wings to take this flight
i know i can fly
nothing happens on it's own
fate is just a word
you make me a better man does that sound absurd
and you look into my eyes and softly say
don't let go
don't let go
don't wanna let u go

you are the light in me
pull me in and set me free
you always let me know
hold me tight and don't let go

don't let go
don't let go
don't let go

weekend fun...

2006-08-29T18:19:00.000+08:00

ok, so anong fun sa weekend? wala naman... hahaha...
yesterday i went to the Rizal Library with Chino to research for our position Paper in English... and we were like... whoa! ang laki ng Rizal Library, almost everything is there... and it's 3x bigger than our hs library...:P ok, so ayun... then went home to write my Tulong-Dunong Project... which was 5pages long... [thanks to chinee for reading and checkin it]...:D
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ok, i wrote another poem...:D guess i'm a trying hard poet... i know my works are not that good... but i stilll write...:P hahaha.. here it is...
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“He Stood Silently on Top of His Graffiti Playground”

Autumn afternoon, the crimson painted sky covered the burnt asphalt.
Cold steel, paint-chipped metal bars.
He stood there, looking at every inch of this place.

Symphonies of broken glass, pierces through his cold, trembling mind.
As these guitar strings strum an endless melody of horror and insomnia.
The canvas of white, turned into a dark, gray, illusion.
Pieces of words flying everywhere he went.

Stuck inside this freak-show of orchestral misery.
He stood in silence amongst the magnitude of hungry eyes.

Eyes that long for entertainment, laughing in the agony of others.
He swore to himself that no tears shall fall from his impaled eyes.
His hands start to move as if a string had been tied onto him.

His master puppeteer played with him.
Moving every inch of his body into a rhythm of fierce discourse.
He watched as his surrounding became like a kaleidoscope,
He danced into a rhythm of an endless samba,
Fleeting away with the twists and turns of cha-cha.

His words played with the burnt asphalt,
Emitting silhouettes of broken ensemble dancing in tremendous anxiety.

He stood silently in his graffiti playground.
Looking at the horizon of endless hymns.

His ecstatic mind creates paintings of weird fantasy.
Turning every bit of sweet misery into reluctant melancholy.

Her memories of grief and anxiety turned him into a barren sinister.
His greed for love turned him into a wasted piece of soul,
Wandering into the dark abyss of this playground.
His hands are still tied by the strings of fate-

-- The strings from the hands of his master puppeteer.

He stood still in his graffiti playground,
As words try to break the strings of his imprisonment.

He struggled to free himself from the strings that encapsulate his soul.
The strings that hold him and make him do things he did not even want to do.

He wanted her to see the smile on his face.
That tears will never fall from his eyes.

She came running to him, telling him it is okay to cry.
She hugged him, and let her love for him radiate, breaking the strings; freeing him.
She cried on his shoulders, staining his white top with her black mascara.
She held on to him…

And little by little,
He never again stood silently on top of his graffiti playground.

walang pamagat

2006-08-01T17:22:00.001+08:00

kami ay pinasusulat sa aming organisasyon ng isang tula o poem, tungkol sa: paano kung kalahati ng mukha mo ay ibang tao o isang hayop... ano itsura nito?

hindi ko ito sinunod.. subalit ang ginawa ko ay... paano kung may taong nkatago sa loob mo.. ilarawan mo ito... at ito ang lumabas...

Mga patak ng dugo sa aking noo.
Tumutulo, tumutulo.
Patungo sa aking mga labi.
Nalalasahan ko ang mala-kalawang na dala nitong lasa.
Patuloy ako…
Patuloy sa pagsikap..
Pagsikap umunlad, makaahon.
Nakagapos, nakagapos.
Sa aking loob ang isang taong naghihirap, nagtitimpi.
Ilang beses na ninais makalaya sa korapsyon,
Paghihirap, pang-aalipusta, ng aking pagiisip, ng aking mga problema.
Paulit-ulit nalang…
Nakakatakas, nahuhuli, ginagapos.
Nakakatakas, nahuhuli, ginagapos.
Hanggang sa mapagod, magsawa.
Ilang beses niyang sinubukang lumaban.
Patuloy ang pagsikap, patuloy ang panalangin.
Ninanais, pinapangarap.
Na sana, bukas…
Siya ay makalaya na.

2 1 1 l e o 2 2 6

dwtL226, Healing Harmony: la voz del Dios

2006-07-25T11:02:00.000+08:00

2 1 1 L e o 2 2 6 B r i c e 2 1 5
july 21-23 2006

"kung ako lang ang masusunod,
aakuhin ko ang'yong pagod.
'di ka na muling luluha,
lahat ng 'yong dinadala, akin na."

42 participants
31 f-givers
40+ staffers
12 alumni
8 snaps

my tones:
chino, aj, migo, miguel, mico, julo, bryan, jb, aldo, roy, carlos, fritz, brian, chris, bj, carlo, lester, niño, marc, aaron, norman, julio, julius, eric, paul, kenneth, jared, nico, jc, gio, fael, justin, francis, chris a., drew, zed, miggy, ej, jonik, angelo, ricky,and jem.

the 42 tones that completed my harmony.

thank you for the memories. sa mga times na naging makulit kayo, o naging maingay kayo,i took it all in kasi ayokong magalit sa inyo. i'm sorry if we didn't get to bond, andami ko lang talagang inasikaso. i wanted everything to be perfect until the end of the mass. oo, mahirap, pero nakaya natin. magulo, pero naayos natin. masaya, at maspinasaya pa natin. hinding hindi ko 'to mailimutan mga anak.salamat.

Basta Kayo 226!

<3, daddy leo

wow...

2006-07-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

wow... been a long time since i last posted here...

well, maybe because i was too busy in school work that i can only check my multiply site.or maybe because i was not feeling bloggy or anything...

well, what's been happening to me lately.

first of all... i'm scared... scared in a lot of things... ewan ko ba...
i'm scared of my mid-term marks, that i feel will be full of C's...
i'm scared of the teachers that would make each and every single day of my high school life miserable...
i'm scared of what might happen in my TD classes...
i'm scared of the projects that are starting to pile-up...
i'm scared of what might happen after she reads my palanca...

oh yes... she...

:sigh:

i miss her so much... it's been 7 months na since we last talked... sobrang sabog ako right now... hindi ko alam yung mga bagay-bagay na dapat ko gawin... i'm so not focused on anything... lumilipad isip ko... and it, if not always, always land on her...

:sigh:

putek! bakit ba hindi ko parin siya maalis sa isip ko... everytime i try... sobrang nahihirapan ako... everytime i give in... wala parin... hindi ko na alam gagawin ko... and i think, by giving her that stupid palanca... i will make things even worse... ghad! how i wish i didn't give her that palanca... the palanca that stated evrything... in that palanca where i told her how i really felt and feel... that palanca where i put all my stupid questions... the palanca where i wrote everything whole-heartedly...

:sigh:

i see myself--

--sitting in front of this melancholy.

shedding every bittersweet memory,
memories i spent with you.

tears fall from my red-bitten eyes,
remembering your sweet emotionless smile.

i wanted to bask,
in the warmth of your smile, again.
hold you,
hug you.

these pathetic words,
writing itself on the walls of my futile mind.
peircing through my frail anxiety.

i fall,
i hurt myself.
i die in your majesty.

you smile in my misery.
you laugh in my sadness.

.sitting, floating in front of this fierce melancholy--

--i see myself, still longing, to hold you again.

:sigh:

why do useless words come out of my mind... making me write stupid, senseless poetry... poems i thought would be great, poems i wish i could give her, poems i wish... i wish...

:sigh:

i think i'll give-up. whatever happens after she reads my palanca, i'll just take it.

[...leo211......sadness fills my empty teacups, swirling around with these frail anxieties......i still love you...]

High School Life

2006-06-18T07:31:00.000+08:00

“This will be the BEST four years of your life.” Sitting in the covered courts of the High School, as the Sanggu Chair of the year 2003 welcomed us. I thought, “Will this really be the BEST four years of my life?” this started a new chapter in my life.

Freshmen. We were new in this strange world. This world that is really different from grade school. We didn’t have to line-up outside for the flag ceremony and the weird bells in the high school: the 5 minute bell and the silence bell. We were like little animals looking four our way around the twists and turns of the high school campus. Talked to our old friends and met new ones and joined various activities of this school such as the different Organizations, the Ani-mo Ani-ko festivities, the Linggo ng Wika, etc. I guess that year went by so fast.

Now, we’re seniors. The last year in high school. The last chance we have to change and fix all the things that we did before. Our chapter will end once we step upon the stage in the covered courts. That stage that blocked a part of Court 1 and made it hard for us to play and run around the court. Our final pages will turn as we step-up and get our hands around that diploma we strived so hard to get. Slowly our book is being written, each laughter, each tear, each failing mark and high grades we get are written on that book.

I guess there are many things you can compare to high school life. Just like the Sun. The sun rise and sunset reminds us of how high school life can be every single day. There are times that we are on top, we are the best. Eventually, that thought would end the things that we think made us grate will soon pull us down and end our day. Every single day we think that way. But even though this happens, we know that there will be a tomorrow that we can look forward to. A tomorrow where we can make our sun stay at the top.

There are also our friends, our teachers, and our families. The people that helped us get through the 3 yrs of hardships we faced.

Our friends, who laughed with us, ate with us, made projects with, and did homeworks with. The people who we trusted with our secrets, the people we told our problems to, the people who stayed by our side.

Our teachers who taught us and mold us into what we are today. Every single day they tried and tried to mold us into a true Atenean. An Atenean with “The Profile of An Ateneo Graduate” stuck in our heads, remembering the 5C’s. They were always there to help and teach us more, things that’ll help us in the future.

Our families. The reason why we are here today. The support they give in everything that you do. Their presence in the reading of honors or other activities you are part of. They nurtured us and molded us into good men.

Lastly, Jesus [Kuya Jess]. He’s been always there for us. He never left us, He guided us, He loved us. He has suffered greatly for our part, He took everything wholeheartedly to free us from sin. Jesus, He wanted us to know Him more, to talk to Him, and even to just spend time with Him. Many opportunities are given to us by the High School to strengthen our religious life. But we overlook this chances.

Graduation is just around the bend. Soon we will be marching up that stage and getting our hands around that diploma. And maybe, just maybe, we will remember all the things that we faced in the four years of High School Life. Months left to change, strengthen, and fix everything before we say our last goodbye to Ateneo High School.

Think About it.

new layout [last summer]

2006-05-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

wow... ampangit ng new layout... i can't seem to fix the stupid side-bar... pero ok lang... i'll make a new one nalang...:D

haaay... lapit na mag-end yung summer... kaya song for the moment is "Last Summer" grabe... i wish i had someone special to tell that to... :sigh:

grabe... pasukan na sa June 7... i'm excited but at the same time sad... ewan ko ba... maybe because sobrang dami nangyari this past month...

i'm going to baguio tomorrow... anyone want a pasalubong?? i wish the environment there'll help me forget, kahit na sandali lang, at makapag-isip, makapag-munimuni...

sobrang tagal na nun.. it's been what... exactly 5 months... pero bakit she's still here... i mean, i tried to move on... sobrang dami ko nang ginawa, kahit makisingit sa CSO ginawa ko na para lang maalis utak ko sa kanya... i still dream of her... ewan ko kung bakit... sad ng mga panaginip, i mean i see here in front of me and she tells me: "i'm sorry." ewan, sobrang labo.

salamat nalang sa mga tunay kong kaibigan na hindi ako iniwan... sobrang thank you... kilala niyo naman kung sinu-sino kayo...

"here by my side in our summer, our last summer." i still love you...:(

[sabaw | bored]

2006-05-26T07:08:00.000+08:00

grabe, ang boring... it's the last day of SEP today, and i'm planning to cut.. well, first time lang naman eh... ayun... this past week, wala lang... hahaha... well, ayun... i'm trying to write a song... hahaha.. ewan ko... ang sabaw ko ngayon... wrote this song in 5 minutes... not yet done... ang corny nga eh.. ahahaha... [tulong sa accompaniment anyone??] hahahaha...:P

"aking buwan"

[verse]
nag-iisa,
ang ngiti sa'yong mukha ay aking nakikita.
walang humpay na ligaya,
ako nama'y nagluluksa.

nais ko lang,
patigilin ang ikot ng mundo.
sa araw na tayo'y nagtagpo,
at nais sabihin sa iyo..

[chorus]
mamahalin kita,
'di kita pababayaan.
ikaw lamang,
ang aking aalagaan.
ang iyong mga kamay,
aking hahawakan.
dahil mahal kita,
aking buwan.

[verse]
naglaho man,
ang ating pag-ibig.
puso ko'y,
ikaw parin ang nais.

lumisan man,
ika'y aking hahanapin.
susunduan,
titignan,
at aking sasabihin.

[chorus]
mamahalin kita,
'di kita pababayaan.
ikaw lamang,
ang aking aalagaan.
ang iyong mga kamay,
aking hahawakan.
dahil mahal kita,
aking buwan.

"Just Friends" [a movie and blog entry]

2006-04-18T19:39:00.000+08:00

"because i want to take you on a date. and i don't care if it's in the day or at night or whenever, as long as it is a real date. and i want to tell you how beautiful you are inside and out. and i want to have babies with you, and i want to marry you and i love you. jamie, i always have."
-Chris Brander

the quote above was said by a character in the movie "Just Friends", the movie was great..

here's the synopsis taken from http://www.tribute.ca :

"Chris Brander (Ryan Reynolds) has it all -- money, good looks and a flashy job as an LA music executive. But things weren't always this way...

In high school Chris was shy and overweight. The bright spot in his life was his friendship with Jamie Palamino (Amy Smart), the hottest girl in high school. The two best buds were inseparable. But Chris harbored a secret -- he was hopelessly in love with Jamie. On the night of their graduation, Chris finally works up his courage and comes clean. A surprised Jamie tells Chris that she loves him too... like a brother. Then comes the dreaded "Just Friends" speech. Angry and humiliated, Chris storms off.

Ten years later, Chris has reinvented himself as a smooth talking lady killer, living large in Los Angeles. Chris's boss, KC (Stephen Root), has just given him his most challenging assignment yet -- turning spoiled diva Samantha James (Anna Faris) into a pop-singing sensation. Wrangling the high-maintenance singer, who also happens to be his ex, seems a hellish task. But Chris's nightmare is just beginning.

A plane malfunction, en route to Paris, causes Chris and Sam to make an unexpected pit-stop in New Jersey -- the first time Chris has been back home in 10 years. Chris drops in on his mom (Julie Hagerty) and smart-aleck brother, Mike (Christopher Marquette). Chris' plans to leave town are detoured when he runs into Jamie at a local bar. Suddenly faced with the chance to "seal the deal" with the "just friends" girl of his dreams, Chris postpones Paris. This sets off a chain of events in which Chris tries to woo Jamie, all the while distracting the suspicious Samantha. Unbelievably, Chris is finding it more difficult to romance Jamie than it was 10 years ago.

The harder Chris tries, the further he slips into the 'friend zone.' .When Dusty Dinkleman, (Chris Klein) another 'just friends' guy from high school shows up, Chris' fate seems doomed. Can he escape the 'friend zone'? Is it possible to go from 'just friend' to boyfriend? Chris is about to find out the hard way..."

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i liked the story...

it's like something i'm going through right now... not exactly, but close...

yeah, you know... "her"... hahahaha...

hahahaha... oh, she replies na whenever i text her... pero not that often... but still, i try to communicate with her...

God! i miss her... i want to see her... i don't know what to do... i am such a loser...

and i have been texting with erika last night... and i thought about what she said... [thanks erika...]

"...There's nothing wrong with dreaming but i think that you should put yourself first. Lose weight, get good grades, and work hard. after a while she'll SEE how great you are... Show her leo..."

yeah, i'm doing something now to lose the weight, i'm gonna take up SEP for advance class, and am planning to stay up late for the coming school year to do advanced studies... but still, i won't stop keeping in touch with her...

i dunno, there's this certain feeling i feel towards her... like she always make me smile and all...

but like what erika said, i should put myself first... and we'll see if "she" will SEE how great i am...

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what i think of myself:

a big loser
useless
ugly [true?!]
sentimental [sobra!]
was destined to be alone...

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ang madramang entry... but yeah... read what it says on the poster:

"He loves her, she loves him not."

true i guess, i love her... i don't want her to be mad... i just want to talk to her... i want to ask her the questions that are on my mind... i want to tell her these feelings i have for her... i want to tell her the truth... i want to know what she will say... i love her, but does she love me??

hopeless...

04.09.06: fishing in cavite

2006-04-11T18:38:00.000+08:00

April. 09, 2006...

i went to cavite with my dad, tito, tita, and mga kinakapatid...

we went fishing sa "888 Fishing Place", near Island Cove Resort. we arrived at around 11am and we started fishing na...:D it was a really fun experience... tagal ko nang hindi nakapag-fish ulit. this only my third time palang naman eh...:P ahahahaha... and andaming tao dun na nag-fifish rin. oo nga pala, milkfish lang nahuhuli dun...:P [bangus!!] ahahahaha...XP kaya ok lang kasi may challenge parin kasi ang hirap nila i-reel in...:P and kailangan mabilis reflexes mo pati yung eyes mo. kasi once na lumubog yung floater, ibig sabihin may fish na na kumain ng bait mo. ahahahahaha...:P

I forgot na nga how to fish kasi mga almost 1 year din akong hindi nakapag-fishing..:P ahahahaha... pero buti nalang nandyan tito ko to teach me again...:P ahahaha... and guess what, i caught 13 fish..:) ahahaha... sobrang saya... after that we went home at around 7pm, tapos pina-weigh nanamin yung bangus and binayaran...

number of bangus: 79
weight of bangus: 32lbs

ahahahaha... it reached almost php4.6k for all the fishes...:P ahahahaha...

when we got home, we counted 40 fishes yung binigay sa amin... kaya this holy week!! bangus ang food namin...:P ahahahaha... ok lang yan sa mga nag-da-diet..:P ahahahaha... so ayun... here's some pics of the fishing area in the afternoon and at night...:D

Happy Birthday Blog!:D

2006-04-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

wow... hehehe... a major update... finally!!:D after 14 days of no posts...:D hehehehe... any way i'll try to update my blog... pero there's nothing to tell so i can't post regularly...:P

today, April. 07, 2006, my blogspot blog turns two...:D that's right, i have been blogging for two years now...:P hehehehe...

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOG!!!:D"

today was also the release of our report cards...

i was scared cause i thought na i might fail in one subject, but gladly wala naman...:D here are my final marks:

Subjects	Final Mark
English III	C+
Filipino III	C+
Mathematics III	C
Science III	C+
Social Studies III	C+
Religion III	C+
Practical Arts III	B
QPI	2.50

awww, my dream of getting an honor in the third term was false...:)) as if i can get one...:)) ahahahaha...

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my song for the moment:

cuida
by sugarfree

kung ako lang ang masusunod
aakuhin ko ang iyong pagod
'di ka na muling luluha
lahat ng 'yong dinaldala, akin na

kung akin lang ang mundo
ibibigay ko siya sa iyo

kung pag-aari ko lang ang lumbay
itatago ko siya habang buhay
wala nang inggit, wala nang galit
paliligayahin kita bawat saglit

kung akin lang ang mundo
ibibigay ko siya sa iyo

kung hawak ko lang ang panahon
wala nang kahapon at bukas, meron lang ngayon
nais kong maging saysay ng aking buhay
ay bigyan ang iyo ng kulay

kung aking lang ang mundo
ibibigay ko siya sa iyo

sa iyo
tanging sa 'yo (2x)
kung akin lang (4x)
ang mundo (5x)
kung akin lang ang mundo (repeat and fade)

March: Graduation Month

2006-03-24T14:06:00.000+08:00

before anything else, because it's March, i want t say:

"Congratulations Graduates of 2006. Good Luck!"

so ayon... and i was watching television at around 7:00am, and i put it on "Magandang Umaga Bayan", and they were doing a graduation tribute. Nikki Gil was there and she sang "Glowing Inside", the song in the vaseline shampoo commercial. and it really is a song for graduation. here's the lyrics and i will highlight the words that really hit the spot...:P hehehehe...:P

Glowing Inside
Nikki Gil

Happy, to let you know
You made me glow, I feel so good,
its true
So glad that i have you
You love me so
Now all is bright

Chorus:
I'll always thank you
For the glow
I thank you for the joy
Thank you for the love you give to me
I'd glowing, glowing inside
With your love
Shining through
Thank you for everything you do
I'm glowing inside
Because of you...

Remember, my growing years
They're build with joy
Because your there for me
You kiss my fears away
You wipe those tears
You give me strength
Each day

(repeat chorus)

Who knows for what tomorrow brings
My glowing wings can make me fly
I reach
And i will touch the sky because of you
I'll sore up high...
So i will ...

(repeat chorus 2x)

there, the song is for the parents usually, but i guess, it can be for everyone and anyone. specially the blue, colored text... it can be offered to friends and classmates. i liked this song, and i offer this to the graduates of 2006.

congrats again and good luck...:D

promotions (part one...)

2006-03-17T14:30:00.000+08:00

ok... promotions na tomorrow and i'm freaking scared... hindi ko alam kung pasado pa ako sa math... yun alng eh... yun lang problema kong subject... i just wish i pass.. ayokong mag-Summer Remedial Program... sobrang bawas yun ng time at hassel, we have Org meetings pa this summer and hindi pa alam kung hanggang kailan yun...

ok lang sana yung org meetings eh... pag sinamahan ng SRP... ayoko na...

pray for me nalang... sobrang kinakabahan ako...

i just wish nasa list ako ng promotions kahit na may "Must take SEP" na kasama... basta nandun...

pwede ba type-written yung Letter of Appeal??

Summer Na...

2006-03-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

wow... i can't believe it's already summer...

the year went by so fast... sobrang whoa!

hindi ko alam kung papano ako magsisimula sa first blog entry ko, before officially starting my summer vacation.
as of now, hindi ko pa summer kasi may mock exams pa and clearance. so baka mga mar.19.

the year has been a great year... daming excitement, tawanan, iyakan, pahirapan, pagkakaibigan.

sobrang dami rin na nagbago sa akin this past year. na-solve ko na yung iba kong problema, at maslalo kong nakilala saili ko.

ang daming magagandang bagay na nangyari, pero mayroon din namang malungkot.
umpisahan natin sa masaya...

masaya ang naging taon dahil ang dami kong nakilalang bagong kaibigan, ang dwtL.

thankful ako sa days kasi, nung pagsali ko rito, sobrang daming bagay na gumugulo sa isip ko. maraming bagay na hindi ko alam kung papaano ko sasagutin at hahanapan ng lunas. pero dahil sa days, maslalo kong nakilala sarili ko, at maslalo kong naramdaman angg pagmamahal sa akin ni Kuya Jess. noon kasi nagdalawang-isip ako sa pagmamahal na binibigay ng Diyos, kung totoo ba siya. pero hindi ako Athiest. after ng days, nakita ko na sbrang dami nang ginawa sa akin ni Kuya Jess. sobrang dami na sakripisyo, pagmamahal, at pangangalaga. pero nabulag ako roon. nabulag ako sa laht ng binibigay Niya sa akin dahil sa mga problema ko. kaya para kay Kuya Jess:

"Salamat at patawad. Sana patawarin Ninyo ako sa mga kasalanan ko. alam kong nagbulagbulagan ako sa mga binibigay Ninyong biyaya sa akin. patawad. hindi ko pinansin ang sakit, hirap, at sakripisyong hinarap Niyo, para lang mapalaya ako. ako ay nagsisisi."

patawad Kuya Jess. salamt din sa lahat.

sa mga naging kaibigan ko sa dwtL, salamat, sobrang salamat. napakarmi ninyong naibigay at naitulong sa akin.hindi ko na kayo papangalanan, kasi kilala niyo na kung sino ka'yo. Salamat ng Marami.

so, ano pa ba...

uhmmm...

this'll be a long ebnry so i apologize in advanced.:P hehehehe...

prom, "The Lost Atlantis" Feb.18,2006.fun prom, sobrang saya. even if i was a STAG that night. (dapat meron, pero long story.)hindi ko naramdaman ang pagiging STAG dahil sa mga kaibigan ko... hehehehe...kaya lang i was not able to go to the Chocolate Fountain... hahahaha... dami kasi tao eh...XP

next, uhmmm... love life...

hindi na ako umaasa... ahahaha... pero i believe na someone is out there for me... hindi ko lang siya na kikita...alam mo na ang sabi nila diba?? "the past, is the past." at hindi na natin yun maibabalik.
kahit na sobrang hirap siya kalimutan dahil naging parte na siya ng buhay ko.
6 na taon ko siyang minahal. oo, pero 2 years palang since inamin ko sa kanya.
mahirap pala, kasi kahit aminin mo na, hindi pa rin siya mapupunta sa'yo. ikaw naman, tatanga-tanga, umasa, naghintay.sobrang hirap. sana lang masaya siya ngayon. sana hindi siya sinasaktan ng taong pinili niyang mahalin.
dapat sasabihin ko sa kaniya na kahit ganoon, mahal ko parin siya. pero matagal na yun.
sobrang gusto ko siyang makausap ulit.
gusto kong makita siya. pero hindi na ako umaasa.inaamin ko na natatakot ako. takot ako na makita siya at makausap dahil hindi ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko sa kaniya.

haaayyy... 6 years ako umasa, 6 years na nagpakatanga, 6 years na minahal ko siya.

shet ang cheesy amputsa...

salamat sa mga kaibigan kong tinanggap ako kahit na makulit ako. kahit na paulit-ulit ang pangungulit ko at pagtatanong ko.
salamat.

labas tayo paminsan-minsan. hehehehe.

cge ingat...:D

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kainis talaga yang kanta ng Cueshe, kakarelate si gago.

Latest LSS:

Can't Let You Go
by Cueshe

I've been to many places
I've met different racist
I've seen so many faces
But its you i cant forget

I've been through high & low
'til i got nowhere to go
I got this funny feeling
That its you i'm missing

So baby come on don't let this go
You know i love you so
Don't throw away
Let out love grow
I cant let you go

We've always been so strong
We almost had it all
Dont give up now or leave
Coz we will always be

So baby come on don't let this go
You know i love you so
Don't throw away
Let out love grow
I cant let you go

So baby come on don't let this go
You know i love you so
Don't throw away
Let out love grow
I cant let you go

Let's come to think of it
Look at all the goodness
Why can let this happen
Coz its you that i always be loving

Oooooh, i cant let you go
Oooooh, i wont let you go
Oooooh, i'll never let you go
Oooooh, i cant let you go

It's been a year...

2006-03-05T02:16:00.000+08:00

wow, i can't belive that there are only 3 days of school left before the start of summer vacation...

well, it has been a busy, scary, fun, unforgettable year.
these are the things/events that i will not forget (s.y.05-06)[not in order]
01. dwtL211
-my dwtL batch... many things changed right after i joined dwtL.
02. dwtL215
-batch where i finally told someone about my problem. and also i found a true friend.
03. dwtL217
-batch of my first 4th year buddy in dwtL.
04. dwtL220
-rectoring batch of my ninong.
-my vice-rectoring batch.
05. class night
-fun
06. field trip
-Banahaw Trip
07. PaLig
-"Destinasyon"
08. Filipino Week
09. Sport's Fest
10. Ani Mo. Ani Ko.
-Krismaskipaps
11. Christmas Party
12. Bodabil 2k6
-i'll watch Bodabil 2k10 (ahahahaha...)
13. "The Lost Atlantis"
-Junior's Promenade

wow, i can't remember the other things... but there are many things that i should be thankful about...

but after all this, there's the time of depression.
the time when i wanted everything to end here...
the time i wanted to kill myself...
the time that i knew, i just had to let go.

i'm so thankful for my friends who has been there for me in times i needed it the most. thanks for the advices, and just for being there when i needed someone to talk to. thank you.
.. chinee
.. erika
.. rich
.. giselle
.. ac
.. brice
.. iel

Thanks for everything. eventhough i get so irritating at times, you're still there for me.

but i guess...
i still can't forget her...
i thought i moved on 100%...
but i can't.. and no one can...
specially if they really love that person...
but i'll move on eventually...
someday i will...
i know that...

well, enough of that... i got 4 of my poetries published in our school's literary magazine, "Pugad"... hehehehe...

well, another year has come to an end... exams March 6-8...
update after exams...:D

But another year will also open, last year in high school is just around the corner...

:sigh: time move really fast...

well, wish me luck...:D

thanks everyone, God Bless...

The Lost Atlantis...

2006-02-19T01:29:00.000+08:00

yeah, Prom was over... it was fun... even if i was a STand Alone Guy... yeah...

i got to school at around 6:05pm... registered at our class table...

i thought this prom will be a big FLOP!.. pero no, the covered courts was transformed into an underground scene... sort-of... there were shells, seahorses, starfishes, jellyfishes, goldfishes... yep, you read right... a real live goldfish was the center piece of every table sa prom... it was nice... but quite deafening...:P ahahaha...

the hosts of the Prom were Joaquin Valdes and Patricia Evangelista... the host of the morning show, "Breakfast @ Studio 23"... here were several awards given... ahahaha.. i can't remember everything but i'll try...

Atlantis King and Queen: Kurt Cendana (3K) and his date
Early Catch: Justin Caparros (3K) and his date
Sweetest Couple: Mico Carino (3A) and his date
Look-A-Like Couple: Brice Crisostomo (3K) and his date
"_______"(?) Merman: Keith Cruz (3F)
Shining Mermaid: Bam (ahahaha... a friend of a friend of mine)
STAG King: JayJay L. (3F)
Energetic Couple: Mik Afable (3B) and his date

ahahaha... there.. uhmmm... the songs of the band was great... they sang songs that reminded me of her... (yeah what a prom... the band sings songs that remind me of the girl that i was supposed to be with that night...) but what the heck... i had fun... i had super fun...

i danced a little, "Twist and Shout" wahoo!!!:))

i talked to my friends... Chin and Aika... and i guess, this is the best prom... 'cause things are ok now between two of my friends...:D No Prob, Chin...:P hehehe...:D

well, this is a night to remember...

the night we went on a journey to "The Lost Atlantis."

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LSS: "Especially For You" by MYMP

Especially for you
I wanna let you know what i was
Going through
All the time we were apart i thought of you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same

Especially for you
I wanna tell you i was feeling that
Way too
And if dreams were wings, you know
I would have flown to you
To be where you are
No matter how far
And now that i'm next to you

No more dreaming about tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I've got to say
I'ts all because of you

And now were back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love i have is
Especially for you

Especially for you
I wanna tell you, you mean the world to me
How i'm certain that our love was meant to be
You changed my life
You showed me the way
And now that i'm next to you

I've waited long enough to find you
I wanna put all the hurt behind you
And i wanna bring out all the love inside you,

Oh and now were back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love i have is
Especially for you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
And now that i'm next to you

No more dreaming about tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I've got to say
Its all because of you

And now were back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love i have is
Especially for you

^leo^

Valentine's Day?!? or Should I say SAD...

2006-02-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

yep, SAD... i don't celebrate Valentine's Day... but rather, i celebrate SAD...

What is SAD??
SAD is simply an acronym for Single's Awareness Day...

well, i guess it got stuck in my mind that Valentine's Day was only for the people that has relationships and stuff...

well, happy Valentine's Day to all... and Single's Awareness Day to some...:))

copy this to save on your own site...:D
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y139/uselessbandaid/valentine.jpg

God Bless Everyone!!:D

TD Exposure Trip

2006-02-07T17:17:00.000+08:00

what a day...

filipino... got a grade of 19/20 in Bigkasan1...
english, failed the longtest by 3pts... how stupid... multiple choice was the worst part of the longtest... got a freakin 7/16 in the multiple choice part... :sigh:
recess, ate a slice of pizza and a melon shake... yum...
ap, we did nothing actually... we just wrote and practiced the "rap" for our project...
lunch, drank half of a melon shake... then got my lesson plan from my TD partner, Bensurto...

then we met our 4E partners in front of the "Promenade." and got on the jeepney assigned to our class numbers...

yes, a jeepney... and the ride was fun... hahaha... wind blowing in your face... we sat in the jeepney for about 45 minutes before reaching the school, Nangka Elementary School. and guess what... the TD exposure trip was fun.. as in super... i taught the kids mathematics, Areas: rectangle, square, trapezoid, rhombus. there was two parts, 45 minutes to teach the girls, and 45 minutes to teach the boys... i like teaching the girls better, cause they learn really fast... as in, we gave a speed test in Multiplication and Division for 3mins, the girls finished it in 2mins... and they are so "bibbo" ahahaha...

the guys on the other hand, needed an additional 1min to finish the speed test... and it takes so much time before the lesson sinks into them... pero ok lang.... one kid was sobrang galing sa math... he was the one to finish the speed test first... galeng... ahahaha...

the TD trip was tiring, but adter that... i felt good... sobrang saya... i can't wait for next year...:))

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LSS:

Narda
Kamikazee

Tila ibon kung lumipad, sumabay sa hangin ako'y napatingin
Sa dalagang nababalot ng hiwaga.
Mapapansin kaya sa dami ng 'yong gingawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag-asa bang makilala ka?

Awit na nananawagan, baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

Ang swerte nga nman ni ding, lagi ka n'yang kapiling
Kung ako sa kanya niligawan na kita
Mapapansin kaya sa dami ng 'yong gingawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag-asa bang makilala ka?

Awit na nananawagan,baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin,para lang iyong sagipin
Ito ang tanging paraan para mayakap ka
Darating kaya sa dame ng ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko sila paano na kaya?

Awit na nananawagan,baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

-=leo211=-

New Year... New Layout... depressed still??

2006-01-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

new layout... hmmm... been not posting for the past few weeks... not feeling that 'bloggy' lately... hmm...

looking over the past year... i say that was my most memorable year... both in good and bad aspects...

days with the Lord...
this 3 day retreat which i thought was a waste of time was one heck of a retreat...i learned so much about myself and Kuya Jess... i saw my world in a different angle...the problems i faced with His help... even though sometimes i wanted to give up...i know that He will never leave me... guess this retreat really changed my life...i joined dwtL last june.17-19,2005.. and before that i hated myself... i didn't believe in Hispowers... His miracles... but after the retreat, i changed... REALLY changed..

friends...
made many friends last year... and that was like almost 20++ friends.. wahahaha...:P
many good things happened to me and i don't, want to enumerate na... as i said..
'I'M NOT FEELING THAT "BLOGGY"...'

maybe this next entry will make me a little 'bloggy'...

last year, 2005, was my deepression year... yes... DEPRESSION YEAR...
guess since the year started i was already depressed... (if you read my past blog entries, you know what i'm talking about...)

well, problems piled up on me the past few year.. specially the last 3 days of december...i asked her to our prom about dec.14... she said yes and that i needed to go to their house to ask permission to her mom.. i agreed...i said i was going on the 29th... she said ok... but you know what happened?? for days i waited and prepared myself for the time when i talk to her mom... i thought..."why am i scared? her mom knows me... and her mom knows what been happening to
us..." i don't understand... when the 28th of december came... i was so nervous of what'll happen on the 29th... i watched dvd's to calm me...but guess what... her sister texted my sister.. telling her that she doesn't want to come to my prom anymore... i was like :crushed:... i waited for that day... i was expecting a nice christmas gift and a very happy new year... but what happened... nothing...

i made a fool of myself for the past 6 years loving her... yes... the past 6 years of
my life, i loved her... but come to think of it... do i really know what love was then?? i was only 11... and i felt this same thing for her until now... i guess my friends were right... i really should move on and forget her... and that's what i'm doing now... moving on... even if it's hard.. i'll forget the feelings eventually... but her... Impossible...

i guess what Kuya Jess is telling me that "she's not for you... there are others out there... you're still young..."

well, if you're going to ask how i've been lately... i'll say i'm wasted...
i wasted 6 years of my life loving her... i wasted hours of sleep thinking of her... i wasted everything...

sad isn't it...

but guess what i'm happy... smiling... trying to move on... i'm glad my friends are still there to give me support and be right by my side whenever i need them... so to the following, THANK YOU!:

> rich
> giselle
> chinee
> erika
> meeyo
> joriel
> leal
> mela
> dana

thanks guys for being there for me... you guys are the best...

well,, that's it for now...

what a way to welcome the new year... this'll be another boring year.. i guess...

good luck everyone... Jess Bless!!

-=leo211=-

posting...

2005-12-14T03:28:00.000+08:00

wow, back from the weekend...

i was a Vice Rector on the last days with the Lord batch(220) and i must say it really is hardwork... sobrang dapat responsible ka... i only got 2hrs and 30mins of sleep the whole weekend... pero it was a nice experience... many things happened during this batch... one is the tension between the 4th year and the 3rd year staffers... sa wakas it's over... the 4th year think we don't respect them na... pero the truth is we do respect them... we follow them... and we learn from them... pero ewa ko ba... nagsimula yung politics na yan sa 3rd year dahil sa isang taong nagsabing "magrerector ako sa 225." ano siya.. hilo?? pero i'm glad na naayos rin lahat...

Ani Mo, Ani Ko Day 1
we had Day1 yesterday... sobrang fun... hehehe.. i danced... ahahaha... i joined this contest with 11 of my classmates called "krisMASKIPAPS"... it was a dance contest... and it was so fun... sobrang saya magsayaw sa taas ng stage...:P ahahaha... kala ko kakabahan ako... pero once i got on the stage all i did was dance and laugh... hahaha...:P

Musikatawan, a contest na dapat you should use your body to make a sound to accompany the song you chose... our class was awesome... wala silang mali... mahina nga lang yung mic... pero astig... they sang "Tuloy na Tuloy ang Pasko" by Ryan Cayabyab... sobrang galing... ang sarap mag-recoding...:P

Adventisment, a contest about making an advertisement about Christmas...
ok lang yung presentation ng class, ferdie acted as the lechon... wahahaha!!!!:P so fun...

Pinoy Star In A Manger, NO COMMENT!:P

Paskusina, NO COMMENT uit!!:P

Paskulit, a classroom designing contest using recycled materials... ahahaha.. sayang i didn't get to take a pic... maybe i'll post a pic on my next post...:P pero our theme was supposed to be "Simbang Gabi" eh our materials were not enough, so we changed it to something called "Pasko: Para sa mahirap"... it was fun actually... the only problem was... it wqas a class activity... and that class only became a 5 person group... San Diego, me, Gamo, Andre, and Ferdie... pero it was fun... kahit na super bad mood kami at naiinis sa class...

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so i had a Y!m conversation with a friend... sobrang... hindi ko alam sasabihin ko... ahahaha... pero salamat sa kanya ng sobra...

friend (12/12/2005 7:41:34 PM): tatawag ka na ba??!
leo (12/12/2005 7:43:51 PM): :-<
friend (12/12/2005 7:46:20 PM): ay nako
leo (12/12/2005 7:46:31 PM): <----gago eh...
friend (12/12/2005 7:47:29 PM): :-L
friend (12/12/2005 7:47:35 PM): T_T
friend (12/12/2005 7:49:48 PM): and then when the moment passes you by and you regret not acting earlier you're gonna blame yourself yet again and slash yourself to death
leo (12/12/2005 7:50:16 PM): true...
friend (12/12/2005 7:51:24 PM): damn you
friend (12/12/2005 7:52:58 PM): life's gonna fucking leave you like shit if you won't step up and just leave yourself in the dark slashing yourself just because you're scared shitless..tangina just do it instead of brooding and blaming yourself in a corner..
leo (12/12/2005 7:54:24 PM): isa yan sa problema ko...
leo (12/12/2005 7:54:36 PM): i always blame every damn thing on me...
friend (12/12/2005 7:55:09 PM): i've been there..believe me..i was exactly like you save the slashing part..
friend (12/12/2005 7:55:13 PM): in fact, i was worse
friend (12/12/2005 7:55:23 PM): ask mike contreras if you know him
friend (12/12/2005 7:55:54 PM): and..believe me..life will leave you like roadkill if you don't take chances..
friend (12/12/2005 7:55:55 PM): or at least
friend (12/12/2005 7:56:05 PM): don't devote life to something that isn't even worth it
friend (12/12/2005 7:56:45 PM): binigyan ka ni Kuya Jess ng buhay para magamit ito ng mabuti..wag mo naman toh sayangin sa pagsakit sa sarili mo at pagiwan ng lahat lahat ng ibang gamit sa buhay para lang sa isang tao
leo (12/12/2005 7:57:16 PM): alam ko naman ya eh...
leo (12/12/2005 7:57:18 PM): ewan ko..
leo (12/12/2005 7:57:26 PM): nalalabuan na ako sa sarili ko..
friend (12/12/2005 7:57:28 PM): wala nang ewan ko!!!
friend (12/12/2005 7:57:32 PM): puta
friend (12/12/2005 7:57:39 PM): take fucking chances
friend (12/12/2005 7:58:17 PM): you have to make mistakes, you won't come out better if you always commit them on purpose over and over again
leo (12/12/2005 7:59:25 PM): :-<
leo (12/12/2005 7:59:34 PM): maybe tomorrow i'll call...
leo (12/12/2005 7:59:41 PM): she's asleep by now...
friend (12/12/2005 8:00:34 PM): no more fucking maybes
friend (12/12/2005 8:00:37 PM): just do it
friend (12/12/2005 8:01:16 PM): if you choke, then i doubt waiting another day would change that
leo (12/12/2005 8:01:19 PM): what time dismissal nila tom??
friend (12/12/2005 8:01:21 PM): if it doesnt turn out ok
friend (12/12/2005 8:01:23 PM): then get over it
friend (12/12/2005 8:01:25 PM): move on
friend (12/12/2005 8:01:28 PM): 1130
leo (12/12/2005 8:01:34 PM): exams ba??
friend (12/12/2005 8:01:56 PM): oo
leo (12/12/2005 8:03:11 PM): shit...
leo (12/12/2005 8:03:23 PM): bawal siya sa phone pag may exams...
leo (12/12/2005 8:03:29 PM): <---tanga...
friend (12/12/2005 8:04:21 PM): edi wedensday
friend (12/12/2005 8:04:28 PM): gago
friend (12/12/2005 8:04:29 PM): di ka tanga

salamat ng sobra... isa kang tunay na kaibigan... salamat sa lahat..

"tatawagan mo pa rin ba ako? sususlatan mo pa ba ako? tayo pa rin bang dalawa?"

[leo211]

new layout, dwtL, cluster night, report cards...

2005-12-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

New Layout

welcome to speak-my-mind.blogspot v.9 featuring the song "Tensionado" by Soapdish... this is my layout for the holidays... it's not that holiday-ish... pero i think it's ok...:D there... making christmas cards that you can post on your websites...:D

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dwtL220

this weekend there'll be another batch of dazers who are willing to commit and accept Kuya Jess into their lives. we, the staffers, the rectors, the vice rectors, and the CMO will try our very best to make the dwtL a successful one.. [lagi namn eh...:P]

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Cluster Night

last December. 07 ,2005, the Publications Cluster had their cluster night in the ateneo high school campus. a time for the various orgs in that cluster to be bonded and to know eachother. games were arranged by Paolo Esquivel, Cluster Head 2005-2006. the games were:
1. Caterpillar
2. tug-o-war
3. animal farm
4. flying carpet

it was a fun cluster night even if only some members slept over for the night...

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Report Cards

report cards will be released on friday, December. 09 ,2005... i'm scared... super... i'm expecting a grade of D's, C's and, C+'s this term... i only hope and wish that for this term, the third term, the last term is to get B's and B+'s in all of my subjects...:D wish me luck...:D

Jess Bless...:D

[leo211]

last weekend...

2005-11-28T07:25:00.000+08:00

my weekend was fun...

last friday was our last day of exams... and i think i'll fail some exams... but hopefully, it won't pull my grades that low... i wish...

well, right after my friday exams, me (leo211), rich213, mk213, lester213, and eric213 went out to buy candles for Days with the Lord... we walked from the high school to shoppersvile only to find out that the candles we're looking for was not available... we (leo211, mk213, rich213) then walked to rustan's supermarket... while lester213 and eric213 went straight to Pizza Hut cause they were so hungry na... buti nalang rustan's has the candles... so yun... rich213 went to MC... mk213 and i went to National Bookstore, Starbucks, then back to Pizza Hut.... hahahaha... i bought fancy papers and mettalic pens sa National... then sa starbuckd,, wala naman... sa Pizza Hut i ate Caesar salad and a Veggie Lover Pizza... hahaha... rich213 went to Pizza Hut cause may pakikilala siya sakin... then after nun... we walked back to ateneo para makahabol sa "Choir Practice" for dwtL... timmy201-215 dapat magtuturo.. then no one came...

dwtl219...
this batch, sobrang aga... kahit small lang yung group nila... buti na lang it was easier to handle eh... congrats to the rectors... 209dolly219nix209... the mass started at around 5pm... as i sobrang aga.. then un... after may concert...

sa concert...
mk213, rich213, and i watched it... sobrang ang saya... Sugarfree was the first one to play, then Hale, then Silk... sobrang saya...

Sugarfree: Sinta, Taguan, Tulog Na, Mariposa, Makita Kang Muli, Hari ng Sablay

Hale: Take No., Mr. Bright Side, Blue Sky, Fix You, Wishing, Here Tonight, Broken Sonnet, The Day You Said Goodnight, and Kahit Pa

i had to go home na when Silk was about to play so i didn't watch it na... pero it was fun super...

salamat sa lahat!!!

after weeks....

2005-11-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

wow.. been a REALLY long time since i last posted here... sobrang, i've been very busy in school...

weeks past since my last post and many stuff has happened...

oh yeah... we had our PaLig in class... our play was titled "Destinasyon", it's about different people riding on an MRT, having problems in their everyday lives... and in riding, they find the answers to their problems...:D hehehe... but our play was not chosen...:P

in the semi-finals, our class entered "Piso Ave." unfortunately... the judges thought that josef's last monolouge was the climax of the play and they were looking for the ending... but our play has no ending... it's just like a cycle...:P

hmmmm.... what's next...

yeah... we had quizzes and long tests which i passed, failed, and some perfected...:P quizzes lang yun...:P ahahaha...:))

dwtL 218: the special batch of dwtL

bakit special ang 218?

it's not only because their dwtL batch dates landed on the same days dwtL started in the ateneo (November. 11-13), i think this is the batch where almost everyone was affected by dwtL... it was in this batch where two friends reunited again... where people you don't expect will take this seriously, took it seriously... gosh... many things happened in this batch... lalo na in their last DISCO... we were shocked of what we both heard and saw...

and yeah...

this batch i have proven that there really are ghosts in the Ateneo Chapel... here's the story...

4am, saturday...

it was only mk and i who was inside the chapel praying... the chapel was dark, only 2 candles lit it's surroundings... i was praying for five minutes... the i heard something... you know a "Gregorian Chant" like people singing in chorus... then after what i heard... mk ran out of the chapel, and i followed... i thought i was the only one who heard it... but then he said.. "i'm sorry, i had to get out of there... may naririrnig ako..." then i said, "what? yung parang Gregorian Chant?"... sabi nya yes... then we saw kid and KP ran past the chapel... then at around 5am, we went back inside the chapel... asked Junie and Zye if they heard what we heard... and they said no... we were like... "OMG!!"

ahahaha... funny story, but true...

what else... uhm...

Days With The Lord Grand Mass this coming saturday, November. 19,2005 at 6:00pm at the Ateneo High School Chapel... all dazers out there... see ya!:D

oh yeah... our exams are next week na... November. 23-25,2005... wish me luck...:D hehehe...

post again some other time...:D hehehe...:D

Happy Holloween....

2005-10-31T03:40:00.000+08:00

kahit hindi uso ang Holloween dito sa Pinas... [yata?!] sine-Celebrate parin ito... kaya, ngayong Oktubre.31,2005... binabati ko kayo ng:

hehehehe...:p walalang...:D

para lang mag-post...:P Jess Bless..:D

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Tensionado

Soapdish

Tensionado

Nagulat din ako

Nong malaman na hindi lang pala ako

Yung nanghinayang

Nong nag-away tayo noon

At natuluyan sa iyakan at tampo

Chorus:

At sandali lang

Huwag ka munang magsalita

Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay mawala

Ang iniisip ko kung pwede pa ba tayo

At miserable

Paulit-ulit lang ang nangyayari

Paikot-ikot tayo parang bote

At nasanay ka na ba doon

At nalimutan ang aking mga tanong

Chorus 2:

At hindi malinaw

Pwede bang wag kang sumigaw

Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay maligaw

Nagtatanong sayo kung pwede pa ba tayo

Chorus 3:

At sandali lang

Huwag ka munang magsalita

Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay mawala

At sandali lang

H'wag ka munang magsalita

Bat ko hahayaang pati ikaw ay mawala.

Nagtatanong sayo kung pwede pa ba tayo

[-leo211-]

note[read italicized words or phrases..]

sa wakas...

2005-10-28T21:25:00.000+08:00

yes! after having several weeks of hell weeks, sa wakas... SEM-BREAK na rin... ay mali... it's not called SEM-BREAK it's called PROJECT WEEK...

why is it called PROJECT WEEK, you might ask??

in 3rd year sa Ateneo, hindi uso ang sem-break... pinaganda lang nila ang pangalan para ma-exite kami sa papalapit na break... pero NOOOOO.... hindi pala break ang tawag dun... PROJECT WEEK pala... :hahahaha:

mga Pryektong kailangan gawin:
mathematics - geometric parol
filipino - PaLig
english - Macbeth (memorize "Tomorrow & Tomorrow & Tomorrow" soliloquy)

Homeworks to do:
mathematics - worksheet about "Arcs and Angles in a Circle"
filipino - "Moses, Moses" Monologo (4 monologue memorized)
english - Macbeth Guide Questions about Acts 3-4
chemistry - Balancing Chemical Equations Worksheet (50 numbers)
religion - "Sin Metaphor"
computer - Smmative Long Test

o diba?? wala kaming gagawin...:hahahaha: ang onti noh??

hay! saya ng buhay 3rd year sa Ateneo... wala talaga kayong sem-break...

well, ayun...:P

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latest LSS...

"Goodbye My Lover"

James Blunt

[verse1]

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,I

am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

[chorus]

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

[verse2]

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

[chorus]

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

[verse3]

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

[-leo211-]

am i still free??

2005-10-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

grabe, i didn't have time to blog for a long time kasi i was so busy...

so ba't ganyan title ng entry ko??

siguro dahil sa sobrang daming projects, requirements, longtests, quizzes, and etcetera... feeling ko ndi na ako malaya... grabe, isipin niyo, in a week you have 4 projects due, 2 Longtests, 4-8quizzes, and the homeworks that is required of you...

Projects, these projects are the reason why i think i'm getting sick... making these projects, i only have an hour of sleep... (or should i call it... A NAP!) because of this i always have a headache and i feel dizzy most of the time.

Longtests, these Longtests are so... argh!!! the super long (30page) dula script, the religion longtests.... argh!

i feel imprisoned... sobrang i forget everything na... i forgot about myself, my other requirements... sobrang sabog ako ngayon at hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko...

if i add up my sleep for 4 days... you'll be like... "Whathe?!" yeah... ganun kalala ang loss of sleep time ko... sobrnag ewan... buti nalang at i don't get eyebags easily... haay... calculating...

calculating...

calculating....

10 hours... yeah, i only have 10 hours of sleep for the past 4 days... siguro if i get eyebags easily, mukha na akong ewa ngayon... siguro sobrang itim na ng eyebags ko by now... haaay....

tama na nga....

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pero hindi lang yun ung reason why...

siguro dahil sa mga sinasabi ng friends ko na:

"keep yourself busy to keep her out of your mind..."

siguro, isang reason pa 'to... i overwork, and keep myself occupied to get her out of mind... sabi ko nga:

"ok lang na hindi ako makatulog... kung ito lang yung way (to overwork myself) to keep her out of my mind... gagawin ko... even if i get sick because of this..."

sana nga magkasakit ako... sobrang i need a break from school... siguro at one point, ma-o-Over Fatigue rin ako...

gosh... i thought this'll keep her out of my mind...

pero hinde... siya parin talaga nasa isip ko... i can't forget her... sobrang salamat nalang sa mga friends ko na super sinubukang tulungan ako... salamat ng marami...

[-leo211-]

:a heart full of words left unspoken, now that we're through. i'd sell my soul to have this silence broken, i thought she knew. i thought she knew... i thought she knew my world revolves around her...:

diba dapat masaya?!?

2005-10-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

ei, it's my Birthday today...

gosh i'm getting older na... grabe.. i just turned 17 today... hehehe...

question:

How should i feel on my birthday?

happy... right?? or excited... but no, i'm so not in the mood to be happy today... or simply... i'm not and i can't be happy today... i don't know why... there's too many reasons that i can't explain... so, i'll just tell you what happend all morning...

after getting the usual "Happy Birthday!" greeting here and there... greetings from my friends, family, and relatives... i waited and see if "She" will greet me... but no... nothing came... and that made me think of something...

-= does she even know that it's my birthday today??

-= maybe she doesn't even care that it's my birthday today...

i don't know... maybe, yeah... those greetings made me feel good for only a second... and then... *BOOM* i'm back to my old sad and depressed self again... even a simple greeting from her like "hapi bday"... could've made my day... pero no... there's not a single greeting from her... and now... *sigh*...

kanina na-binat ako... sobrang headache, and i felt like barfing... pero buti nalang nawala ren... siguro this is because of lack of sleep and over-fatigued... i only slept for 12hours from thursday night until this early morn... sobrang, i lack many hours of sleep....

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dwtL217

days with the Lord batch217 ended last night... this is the most special batch among the others because eventhough the participant's schedule was not meeting with the days... [some had their field trips, some have plays to attend] but still, batch 217 was successfully ended...

so i was part of the Liwanag Committee... [acting "Head"] i think...:P hehehe... anyway, yon.. the real Liwanag head was not there so he left me and rIcH213 in charge... kapagod maging Liwanag... pero it was fun... thanks rin to migs213, rudolf212, karlo216, miko214, miggy216, yen216, renz216... thanks for helping us out sa Liwanag...

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dwtL217 Batch Song:

"Sa Kanya"

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa

Pagkatapos ng ulan

Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali

Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi

Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin

Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin

[chorus]

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin

Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko

Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan

Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang

Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo

At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa

Alaala ng buong magdamag

Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin

Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin

[chorus]

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin

Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko

Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan

Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin

Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh

Sa kanya.

[leo211]

entry...

2005-10-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

entry before dwtL217...

wow... days with the Lord na bukas...
i hope this will be a very successful batch...
at syempre gagawi ng staffers lahat to make this batcha successful one...

well, ano pa ba??

oo nga pala...
it's our field trip sa Mt. Banahaw tomorrow...
grabe i can't wait...
after seeing the pictures taken by the other sections,
talagang i can't wait...:P hehehe...

well, ano pa ba??

malapit na birthday ko...:D hehehe... mga regalo ko ha??
joke... joke... joke...:D

well, un lang muna... tell you everything after sunday...:D

latest LSS:

"Talaga Naman" by MYMP

talaga namang nakakabighani
talaga namang nakakagulat
nakakapagtataka bat ka nasa isip
nakakapanghinayang, sana`y maulit

talaga namang nakakabigo
talaga namang nakakalungkot
kung kailan pa malapit nang mahulog ang loob
saka pa lumisan sa asking pagtulog

(chorus)
panaginip, nakakabaliw
nakikita nga,hndi naman natatanaw
talaga namang hanggang doon na lang
ang pag-ibig na sana`y alay sayo`y
talaga namang di na matutuloy

talaga namang pinapangarap
talaga namang gusto kang mayakap
muling mahawakan ang iyong mga kamay
kahit na alam kong ito ay di tunay

(repeat stanza 2)
repeat chorus

[read the bold letters...]

dahil wala akong magawa...

2005-10-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

dahil wala akong magawa at hirap na hirap na akong mag-isip sa gagawin sa Computer Project na due sa araw ng aking kaarawan(Lunes sa susunod na linggo)... ako nalang ay magpapaskil ng aking pinakabagong "Poem" na tinatawag kong "A Stick of Cigarette"...

"A Stick of Cigarette"

i stand under a lamp post,
waiting for you to show up.
wearing this old, worn-out jacket,
trying to fight the breeze.

the freezing breeze,
that pierces through this jacket.
holding,
flicking,
a stick of cigarette.

i kept waiting,
wishing,
that a silhouette of you,
will be seen.

i played with the flame,f
rom my lighter,
started by butane.

i lit this stick of cigaette-

-and puffed smoke all around.

like fog,
resting on the humid air.
i waited for you,
and waited...
and waited...

i finished the stick,
and threw it away.
and still i waited,
for you to show up.
holding,
flicking,
another stick of cigarette.

[disclaimer: ako'y hindi nagsisigarilyo, ang inspirasyon ko ay ang taong nakita ko sa ilalim ng poste ng ilaw na nag-sisigarilyo..]

new post...

2005-09-30T15:36:00.000+08:00

wow... 13 days na pala since my last post...:P and dun sa 13 days na yun andaming nangyari...

lemme start sa good things...

-= dwtL216
-a very successful batch... even though they were delayed for several minutes...
-first batch ever to have both male rectors... ang galing...

-= Umakyat ako sa stage!
-well, ndi naman ganun kalaking reason para magsaya...:P
-i got a "Deportment Award" kaya ako umakyat sa stage...:P
-Straight "A" sa conduct...:P [good boy ako...]

-= si ::toot2**::
-sobrang saya ko para sa kaibigan kong 'to... hahaha... actually yesterday lang 'to nangyari...
-"naKSP ung KSP..."
-hulaan nyo nalang meaning ng "KSP"...:P

bad news naman...

-= Failed in Social Studies
-gosh... i failed Social Studies for the first time in my entire high school life...
-sobrang ikinahihiya ko sarili ko...:P
-i got a freakin' "D"
-that "D" is a 74% "D"... like... arrggghhh...
-kung pinasa o lang ung exams... i would've a passing mark sa card...

-= "Siya..."
-well, the title says everything...
-tungkol parin sa kanya...
-i'm writing her a 1-filler-palanca... pero nalaman ko na they just had their retreat...
-page 6 palang ako after 2 weeks... been very busy lately eh...

haaaayyyy... grabe!!! ang dami talagang nangyari...
cge... class night ko na mamaya... gtg...:D Jess Bless!!

-=leo211=-

::hoping::daydreaming::

2005-09-17T13:25:00.000+08:00

alas, my emo side conquers me again... as i write this entry of hopes and daydreams...

since i made that entry... i had conversations with really close friends of mine...

brice asked me:
"ano gagawin mo if you were given your last 10 minutes to be with her??"

i answered him:
"tatanungin ko siya if i can hug her... and i'll tell her everything frm the time this started, hanggang ngayon..."

sabi niya:
"tatanungin mo pa kung pwede siya mayakap?"

sabi ko:
"oo... dahil ayoko masira yung last 10 minutes ko with her..."

sabi niya:
"ang hina mo naman... dapat yakapin mo nalang bigla..."

sabi ko:
"i'll respect her decision... sobrang i'll tell her everything... tapos sa last minute, i'm gonna give her a letter... a hand-written letter... na naglalaman ng iba pang bagay na hindi ko masabi sa kanya in 10 minutes... and i'll tell her: 'alam mo, this is the last minute i'll be with you, i just want to let you know that you became a part of my life, and i love you... never yan magbabago..."

after that conversation, i asked [rIcH213]...

me:
"ei, sa tingin mo ba tama ung gagawin ko or ung kay brice?"

he said:
"tell her everything y0u have to.. then hug her 'til your time is up..."

i thought of what he said... and i thought:
"siguro nga dapat ganun..."

then i asked him the same "what...10mins...?" question.... but that's another story...

he told me something that made me think... daydream actually... and it all started here...

daydreams:
1) Christmas time, i will invite her to walk around the village to talk... while walking, i'll tell her everything... as in lahat... if she gets cold, i'm gonna offer her my jacket...

2)New Years day, i'm gonna take her to a park, just sit down and talk... her hand in mine, resting her head o my shoulder...

pero... those are JUST daydreams... and i think it will be IMPOSSIBLE for it to become reality...

i really miss her...

sobra...

do you think if i tell her everything:
.:"matatapos na 'to?"
.:"magkaka-ayos kami?"
.:"everything will be ok?"

sana nga ganun ang lumabas...

if only i have the chance...

-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-:_:-

a new poem i wrote... sana magustuhan nyo...

"Untitled"

goodbye-

-my love...

for years i felt the same,

trying my best to hide it.

but i can't help it-

-i need to admit,

what i really feel for you.

so i gathered all my strength,

an approached you--

--i blurted out words,

that seemed to have no meaning.

empty as i speak,

silent as i screamed.

you disregarded,

my existence.

what i felt for you,

you didn't care.

my confession,

you overlooked---

--and forgot,

what i truly felt-

--towards you...

i tried to forget you,

did everything i could.

but still you remain--

--you remain,

like these bruises-

-these bruises,

that you left---

--when you went away...

-these bruises,

that wont be easily erased--

--by time...

[-leo211-]

depressed...

2005-09-10T05:29:00.000+08:00

*this entry is connected to the one before (with a poem)... this is how i got the inspiration to write it aside from after i had a serious talk with [rIcH213]...

it has been a long time since the last time we talked and confessed to her how i feel... she had been on my mind since... and i can't stop thinking about her... thoughts of her keep running through my head... i never did forget her since the first time i saw her...

sobrang, 'twas a long time ago... as in... and still... xa parin... siguro iisipin ng ibang tao if they heard the story...

"impossible yun... ganun katagal?? tapos hanggang ngayon... siya parin??"

siguro nga parang impossible... pero ganoon talaga... xa parin talaga... i always wait for her reply sa txt messages... pero walang dumarating... every single day i tried to text her, still pareho lang... wala talagang reply... i also tried to call her... but there was no answer...

many times i doubted God... i always ask Him things... sobrang i really doubted His existence... also i not only doubted Him... but i also doubted myself... sobrang nawalan ako ng tiwala sa sarili ko...

my friends always tell me na "theres a reason for everything..." siguro nga there's a reason... pero i don't know what that reason is... and i wish to know what it is... kasi every single day... i miss her more...

my friends also tell me na "kalimutan mo na xa... 'wag ka na magpakatanga... kaya mo yan..."
pero hindi eh... the more i try, the more na naaalala ko siya...

i'm confused... and i don't know what to do... sobrang xa lang talaga nasa isip ko...

siguro nga tama yung mga kaibigan ko... dapat siguro kalimutan ko na siya. pero sobrang hirap...

sobrang minahal ko siya...

and i don't know what to do kung mawawala siya...

i admit na i still doubt God...
may questions parin kasi sa isip ko na hindi ko masagot...

-= "is she the one?"
-= "galit ba siya sakin??"
-= "ano nagawa kong masama?"
-= "kung hindi kami para sa isa't isa, bakit ganito feelings ko for her?"

sobrang i felt like trying to commit suicide again...

parang wala na akong karapatang mabuhay... i don't have the right to be here...

sobrang i tried everything to look like i'm okay... pero sa totoo lang hindi ako ok...
i tried to hide my sadness, through fake smiles and laughter...
i tried to hide my tears, through literature and scribbles...

as in lahat i tried to hide these things i feel...

my friends also tolde me na:

"try focusing on your studies, read, gawin mo kahit ano na makakatulong para makalimutan mo siya?"

pero hindi eh... everything i do, it reminds me of her...

ganun na siguro katagal, na sobrang kahit ano gawin ko para makalimutan siya, wala nang gumagana...

siya na palagi nasa isip ko...

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~

a friend once asked me:

"ano gagawin mo if you were given your last 10 minutes to be with her??"

i answered him:
"tatanungin ko siya if i can hug her... and i'll tell her everything frm the time this started, hanggang ngayon..."

sabi niya:
"tatanungin mo pa kung pwede siya mayakap?"

sabi ko:
"oo... dahil ayoko masira yung last 10 minutes ko with her..."

sabi niya:
"ang hina mo naman... dapat yakapin mo nalang bigla..."

sabi ko:
"i'll respect her decision... sobrang i'll tell her everything... tapos sa last minute, i'm gonna give her a letter... a hand-written letter... na naglalaman ng iba pang bagay na hindi ko masabi sa kanya in 10 minutes... and i'll tell her: 'alam mo, this is the last minute i'll be with you, i just want to let you know that you became a part of my life, and i love you... never yan magbabago..."

sana nga masabi ko yan sa kanya...

sobrang minahal ko siya...='(

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~

ry sa super emo na entry... it's just that, ito nararamdaman ko ngayon...='(

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~

song playing in my head right now:

Heaven Knows (This Angel Has Flown)

- Orange and Lemons

There are times

When i'm lyin' in my bed

How i bellow and cry from this stupid get

And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day

Almost rubbed-out, swelling

As i keep on

Diggin' my face

In these cold hands of mine

Heaven knows how embittered i am

'Cause this angel has flown away from me

Leaving me in drunken misery

I should have clipped her wings

And made her mine

For all eternity

Now this angel has flown away from me

I thought i had the strength to set her free

I did what i did

Because i love her so

Will she ever find her way

Back home to me

I'm so tired

I feel like catching forty-winks

Being up all night in this elbow-room

That puts me in a trance

Where hopes and dreams come true

Now my lips are burning

And my eyes are hurting

From these fumes i make

Still i light another cigarette

Just to pass my time

Oh, heaven knows ho embittered i am

'Cause this angel has flown away from me

Leaving me in drunken misery

I should have clipped her wings

And made her mine

For all eternity

Now this angel has flown away from me

I thought i had the strength to set her free

I did what i did

Because i love her so

Will she ever find her way

Back home to me..

[read the bold letters...='(]

a new poem...

2005-09-06T04:07:00.000+08:00

hey... just here to post a new poem i wrote last saturday night...
i got this urge to write a poem after [rIch213] and i had that serious talk... and i mean serious...
here's the poem:

“I still love her”

How can I miss her so much?
How long shall I suffer?
How long shall I wait?
How long shall I dream, for it to come true?

She was always on my mind,
Filling the empty spaces.
Freeing me-

-freeing me from misery.

I longed for her,
In a very long time.
I searched for the truth,
I yearned for her reply-

-emptiness covers me.

She was an angel in disguise,
But I think God made a mistake.
He gave her to me---

--but she was meant for another.

My loneliness,
Turns into unlawful thoughts,
Thoughts of—

--violence and suicide.

I tried to forget her,
But ‘twas the wrong thing to do.
She became a part of me,
A piece of my mind—

--my heart and my soul.

Her words,
Softly spoken.
Her song,
Softly sung.
Her stance,
Truly an angel.

I fooled myself,
So many times.
But still I held on-

-my love for her,
never let go,
and be with her.

‘cause after all that has happened,
I have to accept the fact----

---that—

--- I still love her.

[-leo211-]

the past week...

2005-09-05T04:17:00.000+08:00

ey everyone...

grabe... exams some i found easy, while some are moderate.... pero still i'm not confident about my answers and the coming grades... kasi usually, if i found it easy or moderate, most likely i will fail that exam... sobrang kailangan ko humabol....
[range ng grade]
Religion: C - C+
Geometry: C - D??
Filipino: C - D
English: C - B
Social Studies: C - D??
Chemistry: C+ - B+
Computer: C - B

grabe.. super baba ng grades ko ngayong first term.... i don't now if my QPI for this term will reach 2.** kasi super baba talaga ng nakuha ko... pero, 2nd term na... i know i did my best sa exams... this 2nd term, i'll focus more on my studies than using the computer... as in sobrang kelangan ko bawiin LAHAT!! as in lahat-lahat... kahit na ndi na ako makakatulog... basta mabawi ko ang mga bwisit na grades!!!

dwtL215:
Another Days with the Lord batch was ended last night at 8:00pm...
grabe 'tong batch na 'to, sobrang bagal kumilos, palaging delayed sa activities, batugan.... mahirap sila gisingin.. sobra..
well, ok lang naman dwtL215 staffing ko... sakit nga lang ng katawan pero ok rin... Basta para makatulong makilala si Kuya Jess!!
Friday afternoon was the most boring dwtL opening i ever saw... sobrang nawalan ng kwenta ung days dhil inalis nila ung most important part!!! the part that should have a big impact on the participants.. but no, they removed it.
Saturday Night was the most busiest staffing i ever experienced... i helped in the exec.com na sobrang pressured sila... grabe... tapos, by 11:53pm [i think...:P] i was with [rIch213(meow!)] and we talked from 11:53pm... until 1:30am, outside the 4F classroom sa 4th year wing... as in sobrang seryoso ng pinagusapan namin... sobra... hahaha, na-inspire ko pa siya...:P wahahaha...:D pero i really want to thank him kasi sa kanya ko lang un nasabi pati sa Sobrang Piling Tao!!! alam ko na i can trust him w/ that...:P [rIch213- wag mo sasabihin sa iba ha??]:P salamt!!!:P then kala namin tulog na mga staffers, tapos pagbalik namin sa staffers room, wala maxadong tao... as in sobrang konti... sobra... tapos we sat outside the room and continued on our conversation.... until Gino211 and 201Timmy215 interrupted us by asking questions and debating aout "El Filibusterismo"... was about to go to sleep when 201Timmy215 asked us a question na sobrang impossible gawin... pero nagawa daw niya eh...:barf: "mental **a**" grabe talaga... kadiri un...

well, cge... gtg... may monologue pa akong aayusin at "Thunderbolt" na gagawin, dahil ako si Zeus, sa aming speech sa English mamya... Wish me Luck...:D bye... Jess Bless!!!:D

[-leo211-]

Entering Hell... (week)

2005-08-29T09:27:00.000+08:00

wow... been a long time na... ahahaha...:D

been very busy sa school lately.... as in sobrang pinagpatong-patong lahat... projects, quizzes, longtest, etcetera. i can't take it anymore... parang i wanna give up na.. sobang 5 hours lang(or less) tulog ko everyday... super stressed... kahit na walang pasok ngayon, feel ko parang meron narin... kasi i'm doing my projects and studying for the examz this coming wednesday...

HELL WEEK na naman... as in... may projects kaming due dapat kanina pero siguro bukas na yun... aayusin ko pa...:

1. Monday Next Week - ~~English Monologue~~
2. Tuesday - ~~English Major Composition 2~~
3. Tuesday - Math Stained Glass WIndow - (on going)
4. Wednesday - Filipino and Mathematics
5. Thursday - Social Studies, Computer, and English
6. Friday - Religion and Chemistry
7. dwtL215 (sana payagan mag-staff)

sobrang dami.. stressful na. headaches pa. i have ubo at sipon pa...
sobrang nakakapgod na... wala pang kwenta 'tong entry ko... haaayyy!!!

quotation of a 3rd year High School student:
"In 3rd year, every week is Hell Week!!"

New Layout...

2005-08-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

wow... it's been a long time since i last updated....
new layout featuring the band Number One Gun and their song "Pretend"...

maybe this'll be my MAJOR UPDATE for the month of August... gonna be busy in school stuff na this coming weeks...

leader ako ng 4 project groups, na very stressfull...
-Math: Stained Glass Project
-Chemistry: Reflection Action
-Computer & Religion: PowerPoint about Ninoy Aquino
-Social Studies: PowerPoint ukol sa "The Republic" ni Plato

tapos weeks nalang before exams... need to catch-up pa in many subjects... grabe...

we watched "Pala-palapag" a while ago in the Rizal Theater sa Ateneo College... actually 2 plays siya...
1. Sino Ba Kayo? [super comedy...]
2. Fantasya [what aspiring actors/actresses face...]

maganda yung plays... preparation para a amin this coming 2nd Term... gagagwa kami ng stage play in Filipino... own music, own script.. etc...:P lalang share...

so wala nanaman ako magawa...
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here's a tula i wrote... actually madami na pero i don't type them eh...:P

"Quid Video"

quid video--
ano ang nakikita ko?

isang bansang puno ng kasinungalingan.
mga batang gala sa lansangan.
matatanda at mga magulang na walang kabuhayan.

quid video--
ano ang nakikita ko?

mga lumuluhang mata.
manga sumisigaw at kulong na kaluluwa.

quid video--
ano ang nakikta ko?

mga taong walang ginagawa.
mga batang nais makalaya--
at malaman; masilayan--
ang katotohanan.

quid video--
ano ang nakikita ko?

mga kaluluwang ligaw.
tumatakbo, sumisigaw.
hinahanap ang ilaw--
ilaw ng katotohanan--
katotohanan at kalayaan.

quid video--
ano ang nakikita ko?

*tulang nasulat ko dahil sa nangyayari sa ating bansa sa ngayon. maraming problemang dapat lutasin... pero ni isa walang mahanap na lunas.. kaya tayong lahat ay nais makita ang liwanag na Kalayaan.
QUID VIDEO: isang salita mula sa Noli Me Tangere na nagkakahulugang "Ano ang nakikita ko?"

I Hate Chain Letters....

2005-07-08T17:33:00.000+08:00

i don't know if chain letters bother you...

but it bothers me so much...

imagine this...

you wake up 12:00 midnight, went infront of your computer and saw that you have a new email... when you opened it, here's what the email contained:

"hi i'm jenna, 7 years old. long black hair, red lips, pale skin, and big black eyes.
pass this in 5mins. or else... i'll kill you at 12:00 midnight."

will you pass it or not??

if you do, then you are part of the chain letter believers.
if you don't, well... we're the same....

but something bothers me more... it's a chain letter about (J.G.MM)JESUS, GOD, MAMA MARY and the likes.

for example:

"I love him...: )

Message: Message: I love HIM...

Jesus I love you and Need you

Pass this in 5min. and a miracle will
happen tonight

PS Do not ignore ..."

i know you're wondering what's the reason that i'm bothered by these kinds of chain letters....

it's because:

01) people like us shouldn't believe in such chain letters.
(WHY?) it's because we don't need chain letters to believe in J.G.MM.

02) people who belives in such chain letters are such [i'm sorry]DUMBASSES.
(WHY?) well, think about it, do you think Jesus will make a miracle in an instant just for you? how selfish.

03) people who thinks that such chain letters can give them miracles and make their wishes come true are [i'm sorry]STUPID.
(WHY?) well, when you passed a chain letter before, did a miracle happen? did you get something that you wished for? then think about it.

these are just 3 of the reasons i can tell why such chain letters are STUPID and DUMB.

It's our responsibility to LOVE Jesus, God and Mama Mary...

if we really love them, then we don't need such chain letters to prove it. one can show their love to Jesus, God and Mama Mary in many ways.

we learned in our Religion classes before that:

"we are all created in God's Image and Likeness."

which means that a part of God is in each and everyone of us. from the rich people to the needy, less-fortunate ones. we can show our love to Jesus, God and Mama Mary by:

-helping the needy
-being there for our friends when they need us
-treating each and every person equal
-looking at our own impefections
-respecting eac other.

these are just the simplest way one can do to show their love for J.G.MM.

i admit before, i used to believe in such chain letters. but i realized that it was STUPID because i don't need chain letters to show my love fro J.G.MM. and it's my responsibility to love them in my own will and not being ordered by such chain letters.

i know you think this is a VERY STUPID and WORTHLESS entry. i don't care, this is what i believe in, i just have to share it with you.

THINK ABOUT THIS:

"Do I need such Chain Letters to believe in Jesus, God, and Mama Mary?
Do I need such Chain Letters to show my love for them?"

i hope you'll reflect on these questions... GOD BLESS!!

"A Stone and Nightfall"

2005-07-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

ei, been busy sa school lately... so may projects, quizzes, and long tests na kami so rarely nalang ako makakapag-computer...:P hehehehe... here's a poem i wrote a while ago... next time nalang ako mag-major update... busy pa ako sa ngayon...:D

"A Stone and Nightfall"

i threw a stone into the river,
the current takes it down a fall.
the stone rolled over and over,
'til it stopped at nightfall.

my tears ran down,
and rested on my lips.
making me taste,
the salt it contained.

my thoughts of you,
stayed on my mind.
like the little stone,
rolling over and over.

i can't help but realize,
the things i did to you.
i hurt you,
your feelings i discern.

now you left me,
you threw me like that stone.
you made the current take me,
take me down a water fall.

i fell down,
and like the stone i rolled over some more.
'till then that i saw the truth,
my heart stopped beating last nightfall.

"Stay"

2005-06-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

a poem i wrote last night... just read on and leave a comment... thank you...:D

"Stay"

"Please Stay!"
Shouting, while you walked away.
I wish you'd stay,
As you turned your back and went your way.

I never imagined this before,
That i will never see you anymore.
As my tears roll down my cheeks,
I remember your soft kiss.

Stay with me,
I can't make it on my own.
I need you here with me,
So stay and never leave me all al0ne.

I felt my world crashing down,
As my smiles turned into frowns.
I felt i died every minute,
As my head meet my empty palms.

I held your hands one last time,
Before you go and leave my side.
I felt i was a mime,
My life was dull, only black and white.

I need you to stay,
You're the one who lights my way.
I need you every single day,
So Please, Please stay.

an update after 12 days...

2005-06-01T07:36:00.000+08:00

hey everyone,

been very busy these past days.... the SEP Classes just ended last May.27... i also got my books on that day... may.28,29,30,31... i've been cleaning my room and fixing my school materials...

yeah... classes are about to start na... YEY!!! i can't wait... our classes start June.8.... but i'll go to school June.6&7....:P ahahaha...

my mom got me as "Pasalubong" the 3 CD's ng "MAE":
- Destination: Beautiful
- Destination: B-Sides
- The Everglow
been wanting these CD's since my friend introduced me to "MAE"'s music...:D

for the past 3 weeks... i was able to have 6 CD's... i can't believe it... usually i only buy 2 CD's/month... tapos now, i have 6 CD's in less than a month...:P
the CD's i now have in 3 weeks time:
1. Orange and Lemon's "Strike Whilst The Iron Is Hot"
2. Milk n Money, Blue Ketchup and Brainwash's "Graduation Day"
3. Hale's self-titled album
4. MAE's "Destination: Beautiful"
5. MAE's "Destination: B-sides"
6. MAE's :The Everglow"

been watching MYX lately.. i'm waiting for the Music Video of "The Bloomfields" pero they only showed it once... aaarrrggghhhh... kainis... astig pa naman "The Bloomfields"...:P

so un... un lang nangyari for the past weeks...:P

latest addiction...

2005-05-19T19:41:00.000+08:00

last tuesday, i bought Orange and Lemon s' sophomore album "Strike Whilst The Iron is Hot"....:D got addicted to their latese single "Hanggang Kailan"...

i dunno but i think i can relate somehow...:D here's the lyrics...:D

"Hanggang Kailan" by Orange and Lemons

Labis na naiinip
Nababagot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong magawa

Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng
Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi

Di mapigilang mag-isip
O baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakaka balisa
Knock on wood wag naman sana

Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng
Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi

Umuwi ka na baby...
Umuwi ka na baby...
Umuwi ka na baby...
Umuwi ka na baby...
Umuwi ka na baby...
Umuwi ka na baby...

an update... AT LAST!!!

2005-05-14T08:00:00.000+08:00

well, it's been... what... 12 days since i updated my blog...XD

finally, an update...:P

so, for the past 12 days, i have been attending my SEP classes... it's fun... being with my friends and all... meeting new peeps...:P hahaha...:D

i thought Chemistry was hard... pero once you get the hang of solving for the # of protons, electrons, neutrons, etc... madali lang pala...:P hahahaha... MASAYA ANG CHEMISTRY!!!!:D

we still have 2 weeks para sa SEP classes, tas nun la na...:P

may.12,2005 -- i enrolled na for third year...:D lalang...:P
IT's OFFICIAL... 3RD YEAR NA TAYO!!!! hahahaha...:P

june.6-7,2005 -- mag logistics kami for Freshmen Orientation tapos... un... la na...:P

june.8,2005 -- start ng classes... yes!! malapit na...:D sana maaga rin ung end ng school year...XP hahahaha...:P
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ang saya pala pag bored ka... dami mo nagagawa ng hindi mo ine-expect...

i have written 3 tula in 5 minutes...:P finished a layout in 10 minutes...XP cleaned the house in an hour...:P hahahaha...:P lalang...:P
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here's a tula i wrote last night... hope you'll like it...:D

"Mahal Parin Kita"

6 na taon na ang nakalipas,
mula nung una kang makita.
tahimik ant nakangiti,
at ako sayo ay nabighani.

5 taon na ang nakalipas,
kala ko mahal na kita.
yun pala,
gusto lang kita makasama.

4 na taon na ang nakalipas,
ika'y di na nakita.
akala ko,
ako'y nalimutan na.

3 taon na ang nakalipas,
nawalan na ng pag-asa.
kung ikaw ba'y,
muli pang makikita. (mahal na kita)

2 taon na ang nakalipas,
ika'y muling nakita.
nakinig sa'yo, kht nasasaktan.
tiniis ang lahat, kahit na mahirap.

1 taon na ang nakalipas,
pag-ibig sa'yo ay ipinagtapat.
ngunit ika'y nawala,
nagmahal ka pala ng iba...

there... hope you liked it...:P comment nalang, if ever----...XD

cge... ingat kayo... God Bless!!:D

back from bora...

2005-05-02T15:46:00.000+08:00

hey everyone... musta na??

just got back from my boracay trip last April.27-30 (my mom had a convention).

grabe it was so hot there and it was full of people...

was only my second time to go to boracay, and alot has changed since my last visit there...:P

so, what did i do as soon as i arrived:

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April.27,2005

>we arrived at around 1pm and checked in "Boracay Regency" then proceeded to our room.
>we ate lunch at around 3pm at the Hotel Seraph's Dining area then went back to our room.
>so i slept early that night because i didn't get some sleep because of packing my stuff.
>my family ate dinner while i was asleep in the room.:P

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April.28,2005

>woke up at 2:30am and watched television...
>walked near the shore at around 6am...
>looked for a place to eat breakfast at around 6:30am... [guess what?!? i saw j.caparros!!!]
>ate breakfast aound 8am...
>saw doxie...:P
>went to "d mall de boracay" from 12pm until 3pm...
>ate dinner at around 8pm...
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April.29,2005
>woke up at 4:30am...
>watched television...
>ate breakfast at around 6am...
>went fishing from 9am until 12pm...
>went island hopping from 3pm til 6pm...
>ate dinner sa "Pier One" at around 8:30pm...:P
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April.30,2005
>woke up at 4:30 am...
>went to "d mall de boracay" and ate breakfast..
>went to "Talipapa sa Boracay"...
>went back to aklan at around 2pm..
>ate lunch at around 3pm...
>waited for the delayed "Philippine Airlines Plane" until 5pm...
>got home at around 8pm
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yan ginawa ko in my boracay trip...:P an corny noh...:P hahahaha...:P

btw, SEP is starting tom na...:D i'm not that excited pero ok lang...:D sa lahat ng friends ko na mag-SEP:
SEE YOU SA ATENEO!!! :P

ang saya...

2005-04-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

so, kumpleto na braces ko...

mga 4 days na 'to hahaha...:P ang hirap kumain... masakit pag ngumuya ka...:P pero masaya...

naiilang parin ako minsan d2 sa braces...:P buti nawawala na mga singaw ko...:P hahahaha...:D walalangz...

so, 4 days ako hindi makaka-update ng blog ko...:D kasi, we're going to Boracay...:D

alis kami dito tom ng 4:30am... tas balik ko sa April.30 na...:D sakto lang before mag-start ung SEP ko sa ateneo...:D

i'll take geometry and chemistry...:D hahaha...:P walalang... wala ako masulat sa blog eh.. kya ganito nalang muna...:D

cge... mag ingat kau!!:D

braces...

2005-04-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

sa wakas kumpleto na braces ko...:P hahahaha... walalang...:D

today is the first day that i have these braces on...:D
medyo mahirap isara ung mouthh ko, xe ung lips ko sumasabit dun sa braces...:P hahahaha....:D

ngayon, i'll eat soft foods nalang..:P like oats, noodles(minsan sabaw lang...:P), etc...:P

sumasakit na nga ung ngipin ko eh...:P hahaha...:D

parang may nag-clamp sa ngipin mo...:P hahaha...:D masakit... pero astig ung feeling...:P hahaha... super sadista... potek!!!:D

so un... saya ng may braces...:P

next week, punta kami sa boracay (April. 27-30,2005)... hay... not that excited nga eh...:P

yesterday....

2005-04-19T15:35:00.000+08:00

things that happened yesterday...

aside from the transport strike[which really sucked...] and the incdients that occured during the strike:
- 6 buses were "nailed" [hit with a plank with a nail in the end...
- people getting late...
- makati having half day work...
- etcetera...

at around 8:30am...

i went to Ateneo to enroll for SEP [gonna take geom and chem]...

i saw my friends & classmates there:
- chinee
- erika
- gamo
- andanar
- franco
- jadd
- chino
- bugsy
- mico m.
- mark l.

hahahaha...:P
the line in the registration area was so long...:P and you have to wait for the form to be validated before you can pay at the cashier...:p after that you have to return to the registration area to get your ID...:P

ok...

at around 1-2pm...

"rubber separators" were "flossed" in between my lower teeth... 5&6&7... just like the diagram before...:P hahaha...:P

i will go back to the dentist either thursday or friday...:D

that's all...:D God Bless... Yngatz Kayo!!!:P

upper braces...

2005-04-11T19:11:00.000+08:00

well, a while ago, at around 7:00am, my mom and i heared mass at the St. Paul The Apostle in timog avenue...

at around 8:00am, i was at my mom's clinic in St. Luke's Medical Center... i was waiting to be called by the dentist because my upper braces will be put na...:D hahaha...:P

so, i was called at around 10am...:D i waited in the dentist's office...:D but my "molar band" was yet to be delivered... so i let the othe patients go first...:D

ok, so the "molar band" was delivered na...:D and i was still waiting there...:D at around 1:45pm, my braces was attatched...:D

so i spent 2 whole hours there lying on the dentist chair...:D while my braces are being put..:d lol...XD hahaha...:P my braces' color is light blue...:P hahaha...:D

that's all, and kuhaan na ng cards namin tom...:D yehey!!!!!:D i'm excited to see my grades...:D

cge guys, take care...:D YNGATZ!!!:D

blogging at 4:30am

2005-04-09T04:30:00.000+08:00

ei, sup??

been 4 days now since i had these "rubber separators"...:P and it get's irritating sometimes... it's like, there's something stuck in teeth that you are not allowed to take out...:P hahaha...:P

so, can't wait till monday...:P these "rubber separators" will be removed na...:D yehey....:D and my braces for my upper teeth will be put na rin....:D hahaha...:P

okay... enough of that stuff...:P

out of boredom yesterday, i made a couple of icons or avatars (which ever you call it.)
here they are...:P

Mae - "The Ocean"

Love

for macky lazo

i know... it's so ugly...:D but if u decide to use it...:D please credit me...:D

tom, Sunday(april.10,2005)
my family is going to Tagaytay... lalang.... just to relax and have fun...:D hahaha...:D
cge, gtg... yngatz...:D comment on the icons or avatars...:D